It's not like I don't want to be around people. I just don't feel so important. I believe they are better off without me or else they would like to hang out with me more often.
I am sorry. I am used to giving all of me in love and friendship but being hurt by people taught me to give a part of myself and not all of me. I am so ignorant in this new concept of life, so fear activated automatically and shut my feelings off to protect me from new enemies.
I can't give half of me. I give it all or nothing at all. Deciding to offer nothing, I became nothing and by becoming nothing I emptied all at once.
I try to leave the nothingness behind, even if it has been an important part of me and start all over again with a better and clearer mindset, even though my mind still seems a little bit lost.
Believe me, is more difficult to find your home, when you closed by your own all the doors before even throwing an eye on them than when they furiously made you face a closed door and left you behind hurtful and rejected.
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My Secret Phone Notes
PoetryWords, sayings, thoughts of mine and maybe somehow poetry which are written in my phone's notes and nobody sees and knows about them but they keep deep secrets of mine that I'll never have the strength to say. Writing is my escape because there are...
