broodings

primary school art class

inspired by art class by rhiannon mcgavin (above)

her eyes are cobalt
and her hair is russet
and i've always had a weakness
for girls with blue eyes
so maybe it's okay that
i spend most of my time
painting her in my head
even if you're not supposed
to look at your friends that long

and maybe it's okay
that i would give my blood
to paint the colour of the blush
on her cheeks
and i would give
the petals of my favourite
plant's flowers
to paint the colour of her jumper
and every strand
of hair on my head
to paint her boots
(the ones she stomps
on my heart with)

and oh god i wish i was
a little girl sitting in my
primary school art class
because if i was that girl
it would be okay for me
to paint her
and it would be okay
for me to create every
colour in the world
so i could paint her
because i would only be young
and everyone would smile
and go 'look, isn't she so artistic'
as i smeared reds and browns
across the page
so i could show the true
colour of her hair
and everyone would smile
and go 'look, isn't she so artistic'
and as i practiced
shading for three hours
(even though if i was
that girl i would only be
young and i wouldn't be
able to sit still for that long)
so i could get the exact blue
of her eyes

and maybe i can't draw
a straight line anymore
(because she gives me the shakes)
but that's okay because her
hair is curly and her body is curvy
so i don't have to draw a straight line to draw her

and maybe if i was that little girl
it would be okay
that i was- that i am-
in love with my best friend.