broodings

achluomania

achluomania

[n.] an infatuation/passion/obsession with the dark.

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there's whispering,

the creak of a floorboard,

a little girl's giggle,

crickets chirping,

the laugh of a psychopath,

a hiss of a 'would you die for me?' 

a chuckle, an answer of, 'why should i?'

there's noise every way i turn my head, noise even when I'm eight feet deep under soil,

noise, never ending noise,

the darkness is a blanket,

     and yet it terrifies me,

rather than keeping me warm,

people ask me,

'why do you say you have an obsession with the dark if it scares you?'

liking something, loving something, is not the same as being obsessed, infatuated by it.

THE DARK IS ALWAYS THERE,

IT'S THE SHADOW BEHIND MY HUNCHED OVER SHAPE,

IT'S THE COLOUR OF A CUP OF COFFEE,

IT'S THE STUBBLE ON YOUR JAW,

IT'S THE PUPIL OF YOUR EYE,

IT'S THE COMPLETE WHITE OF THE HOSPITAL WAITING ROOM,

IT'S NOT JUST A COLOUR, A SHADE, IT'S A FEELING.

IT CREEPS UP ON YOU IN THE EARLY HOURS,

IT POUNCES ON YOU LATE AT NIGHT,

IT ENVELOPS YOU WHEN YOU CRY,

IT BEATS YOU DOWN WHEN YOU SMILE,

IT'S ALWAYS, ALWAYS T H E R E .

- r.s.