broodings

lost childhoods

ew

tip your head
back, swallow,
it burns on the way
down, rub your eyes,
cry, smudge makeup
everywhere, grunts and
moans, so far from
home, childhood
lost, watch the
teddy bear, throw
it away, it rips
your own heart in
two, watch cartoons
until your eyes go
square, puke
everywhere,
standing up, dizzy,
alone, sobs and shouts,
so tall and grown,
childhood lost,
greasy hair,
dyed until it's dead,
cut it short, grow it out,
smudged makeup,
wipe your eyes,
put more on top,
lace thongs and
underwear, push-up bras
in a 30C, tattoos, nightmares
and an affair, grunts and
moans, so far from
home, childhood lost,
weights in your pockets
when you go to the doctor's,
slit throats and plastic smiles,
taking drugs just to make
yourself forget, pretty little pills
in pretty little mouths,
weary heads that need to rest,
burning the kitchen down,
slit your wrists,
razor blades, guns,
blood on the bathroom floor,
don't eat, don't eat,
oh, i'm on a diet
ugh, my thighs are so wide
you can see your bones
sobs and shouts,
so tall and grown,
childhood lost,