Things Left Unsaid

The begginning of summer

I awoke to a loud banging at my front door. My parents were away for a week-long convention thing in Arizona. So I was home alone like usual.
I peeked out the eye-hole of the door. JAY. He had been calling me all night.
"I pulled away from the kiss. Sarah please, let me in." His voice sounded like he had been crying.
I pulled open the door and looked at him.
"Yeah. I'm here." I said sarcastically. He had bags under his eyes that I had never seen before.
"Oh Sarah, I'm so sorry. I didn't kiss her back. You have to believe me, if I did I would probably be to ashamed to come back to you." I think my heart melted. I got it back together and stuck my bitch- face back on.
"Ok. Yeah I forgive you." I have him a hug. He always squeezed me to a pulp. His arms didn't look as buff as they felt.
  Jay had brownish black hair that flipped in the front. He was about 5'9 almost 6 foot. His torso and legs were about the same length, and you could see some of the vains in his legs. He has the brightest golden eyes, but u could see some green.
  "Can I please come in so we can talk." He spoke seriously. I nodded and moved my body from the doorway.
  We sat on my bed and looked at each other.
"What is there to talk about. Why did u come back? You never wanna hold my hand, or kiss or anything. I actually feels like your a sibling." I spoke darkly looking into his eyes. I didnt expect him to say anything to what I had just blurted out.
"Because I love you." He took a second pause." Ok............I just never felt the way I do when I'm with you."
He leaned in to kiss me, but I pulled away and touched his face.
"You said you love me." I whispered our faces close, our breath classing into each other's. " I love you too."
Our lips smashed into each other. He Began to pull away, but I pushed on him harder. We both pulled away to take a breath.
"You need some sleep and also don't think u can always be forgiven that easily when u do something." I spoke proudly. Yet I could feel the smile ruining it on my face.
"I know." He kissed me again.

So what shall we do today. I thought it to myself.
            Summer...Hotness...Tanning...
"Hey, would you maybe want to go swimming." I spoke putting on my sneakers.
"Well my mom just got our pool cleaned. So let's go to my house to swim." I hated his pool. It was too... Circular. Like a big circle but half was square.
"Ok yeah I guess so." I grabbed my keys and headed towards the door.

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~After Swimming~

"I can't believe it's summer." I was drying my hair in his bathroom, with the blow dryer I had left.
"Yeah. We can swim all we want." He walked over to me grabbing me from behind and hugging my waist. "We can be whoever we want."
"So about the promise ring. Do u expect me to wear such a expensive thing." I realized that it was expensive when I looked it up.
"Well. If u do promise to be with me forever until death do us part. Then yeah I would want you to." He said stepping back from me a little bit but still holding my waist. "But if u do choose to not wear it..... I will still love the beautiful person you are."

I turned around and kissed him intensely. I pulled away and ran from the bathroom to the kitchen.
"Catch me if u can." I yelled at him"But if u do then we can do whatever you want to do for the rest of day. If u don't then u have to make me that fruit smoothie - then go to yoga."
"Deal." He ran into the kitchen with one of my favorite pair of shorts. He pretended to tear them apart before saying." If u want your shorts....." He took a long pause coursing his chin." Then they may die."
He was using this advantage so I would lose. I quickly did a 360 around the room and say his new nikes on the counter. I quickly grabbed the box, opened it, and hung a shoe over the sink.
"You wouldn't." He said dropping my shorts to the ground.
"Oh I would." I began. "Maybe put the other one in the garbage disposal." Teasingly I put the shoe further down towards the sink.
"Sarah why? Please don't hurt them." She spoke with a 3 year old voice. "WHY are you punishing me. Do u really want me to go to yoga that bad."
"No. It's just sooooooo funny to see u jump like that." I started laughing so hard I fell to the ground.
I felt him grab me and pull me on top of his shoulder.
"You shouldn't have done that." He said laughing running me to his bedroom.
"Hey let me down. Ur so cute with u get upset." I yelled shoving my hand into his shoulder.
He set me down on the floor beside the ft of the bed. He reached for my hand and pulled me into a dance position.
"Would you like to dance my lady." He asked in his deepest voice.
"Yes I would sir. Could we have tea later also." I spoke in a European accent.
  "This is why I love you so much. Your beautiful." He kissed down my arm inbetween every word. "Your kind.............. Your lucky." He stopped when he got to my neck.
"Why is it so hard to want to believe that you love me, but I can't get over how use hurt me." I said trying to swallow the lump in my throat. DONT CRY.  DONT CRY. I was yelling at myself from the inside. "I'm sorry. It's just I wanna trust you I do."
  "Then do. Trust me. I mean ur here." PAUSE
" Right now.... Standing right beside me." He took a step and pulled me into his body. "Trust me." He said pulling me into a kiss.
  He had this toll over me that I couldn't control. His eyes just pleading for forgiveness, I always gave it to him. I really did love him, but he had put me though soooo much humiliation. I just didn't know if I could trust him.
  My mind was telling me to push him away and scream at him. Tell him he's a jerk and he needs to stop always losing and tell his stupid friends. My heart took over. My feelings for him took over, and I pushed my lips even harder into his.

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