I'm the real delirious

Breakdowns and Tantrums

Everyone was still crowded around me. Some still crying some finally calming down. Luke and Evan however didn't cry though. I then thought about my dads death. I realized once again that it was my fault that he got shot. It's my fault that he died. I'm a horrible person. I looked down with a frown on my face. I excused myself from the boys. I then went upstairs and got out a piece of paper and started to apologize for random things. Things that I'm sorry happened.

I'm sorry that I was born. I'm sorry that I was thought up. I'm sorry I'm not perfect. I'm sorry that I'm not special. I'm sorry that I'm a girl. I'm sorry that my dad died because of me. I'm sorry that my mother hates me. I'm sorry that my sister is a witch. I'm sorry for existing. I'm sorry I'm me. I'm sorry for living. I'm sorry I'm a waste of space. I'm sorry that I'm human. I'm sorry that I'm me.

When I was done I had tears in my eyes. I got my camera and set it up. I then turned it on. "Hey guys its H2ODelirious here and I'm gonna sing ya guys another song. It's called Die In A Fire by The Living Tombstone. Here you guys go. Hope you enjoy it." I smiled at the camera and started to sing.

I really hate you
Stop getting in my way
I lost my patience
When are you gonna decay
I want to throw you out
Just like my broken TV
If you'll come back once more
It will be painful you'll see

I hope you die in a fire
Hope you'll be stabbed in the heart, hope you'll get shot and expire
Hope you'll be taken apart
Hope this is what you desire

It's almost over
Why can't you just let it fly
Don't be afraid
It's not the first time you'll die
Your mechanical parts click
Sounds like when I broke your bones
Once I get my second chance,
I won't leave you alone

I hope you die in a fire
Hope you'll be stabbed in the heart, hope you'll get shot and expire
Hope you'll be taken apart
Hope this is what you desire
[x2]

When I was done I shut the camera off really fast. I then threw my mask at the wall. I was beyond pissed. I growled. "ARGH!!!" I yelled I pulled at my hair. I then started to take deep breathe.

"I hope she does die in a fire, get shot, and all her fucking bones get broken. I'll laugh at that bitches funeral."  I said. I pulled at my hair again and started to laugh like crazy.

I then backed away from my chair I was sitting in. "Fuck what people think and say. So what if I'm a ugly fuck. I'll do what ever the hell I want." I picked up the camera. I turned it on again and started to record.

"Hey again! It's H2ODelirious!!! And I wanted to say that I want to show you guys my face so here it is!" I turn the camera to face me. I show them my ugly face.

"Yeah I know I'm ugly but I just realized... WHO GIVES A FUCK ABOUT ME!!!" I yelled.

"My family don't. They think I'm ugly, Fat, gross, loud, and crazy. But hey I didn't shoot anyone! Now my mother did that!!! THATS WHY IM FUCKING INSANE!!!" I yell and laugh. I give a wide smile and then shut off the camera and I throw the camera to the ground causing it to break. Well shit. Gotta get a new camera now.

After my little scene I backed into a wall. I slid down it and stared to cry.

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LUKES POV:

I heard Hanna screaming and yelling. Evan wanted to check up on her but I said no. I knew she was going crazy. This always happens when she tells her story. She writes down stuff that she fucked up.

She apologizes for no god damn reason at all. She sings a song about killing people. Then she fucking screams and cries. But something new that happen was a big loud BANG! That came from her recording room.

I decided it was enough. So I walked up to the room and when I got near it I heard quiet sobs. I opened the door and looked inside. I saw Hanna on the ground crying her eyes out. I walked up to her.

I sat next to her then lifted her onto my lap. I rocked her to try and calm her down. I petted her hair while she cried into my shirt. Which is probably ruined now. But i really don't give to shits. Hanna is crying and she's my main priority.

"Hanna it's alright your gonna be ok." I said into her hair. I kissed her head and wiped away some of her tears. She nodded. I looked around the room and I see that her cameras broken. She probably threw it in her anger tantrum. I hope she is better soon.

I knew what would calm her down in almost an instant. I started to sing her favorite song ever.