Happily Ever After.. No (SQ to Not A Regular Girl)

Chapter 28

"So, the dancers will be coming from here as they make their way to the center of the stage..." They talked and talked about the preparations for the show that I'll be preforming. They were setting up the whole thing and as it seems that is the only thing in their minds. But to me it isn't. I might be here, but my mind is somewhere else.

I'm trying my best to be my best and not act like an ass. But I don't seem to focus on what's going on. They will ask for my opinion and I will just nod. No matter how much I'll try to pay attention, I just won't succeed. I would rather be somewhere else with someone else, and everybody can guess who that person is. No matter how hard I'll try to not think of her, my mind will always find a way to connect her to everything.

They were talking about the settings of the place and maybe they'll put some fireworks, so as I tried to focused my mind went to the Fourth of July. Angie had made me go out and hike that day. I still have no clue on how she found the place she took me to, but she found this beautiful place that gave you the perfect view to the whole city. As we sat there and just admired the place soon enough the fireworks started. She smiled as she knew but still looked at it in awe, admiring the beauty. She was so focused on the bright colors at the sky that she didn't notice that I was admiring the beauty she is. No place in the world could top her beauty.

The way her eyes sparkled and widened at the view, as her cute nose scrunched up a bit and her mouth formed this perfect little smile. I love the way her cheeks turn into the shade of pink whenever she is in awe, as if she was embarrassed with the beauty. What she didn't realize is that herself is one magnificent beauty. I couldn't take my eyes off of her, because at the light of the fireworks I discovered new things about her, like the few freckles she has under her eyes and that little scar on her forehead, that is barely noticeable. I wondered how she got it. It added to her beauty and uniqueness. I was lucky to have her but now I lost her. If only I could-

"Justin? Are you paying attention to us?" Scooter takes his hand off my shoulder. I shake my head a bit and look around the room. Everybody is looking at me and some seem even annoyed with me. Okay, just breath and don't be a jerk.

"Sorry, what were you saying?" I notice the surprised looks and the small smile on Scooter.

"We were going through the songs and wanted to know if this is the final decision." Matt hands me the list and I go over it.

"One less lonely girl, beauty and a beat, baby, all around the world, confident, boyfriend..." The list read and went on.

"Can I still add some changes?" I ask and they think about it for a second before agreeing.

"This is no regular concert, it's a small private one. I was wondering if I could do a cover or too? And sing this new song I was working on with Poo."

"New song? What new song? You haven't mentioned it to me!" Scooter says, surprised, and I shrug. "I wrote it a few days ago and Poo is helping me out." His eyes widen but he still nods.

"It's been a while since you and Poo talked to each other." I sigh and get up from my seat. "I'm feeling a bit lightheaded, excuse me." I walk out of the room and put my glasses on as I head to the roof. I need some fresh air and I can't go outside without getting mobbed, so the roof will be.

I get to the roof and sit on the ground with my back against the wall. How am I supposed to keep going without her? All of this seems so pointless when she is not around. She makes it seem that it's so easy to move on and be happy again, but I know she is hurting. I can recognize her real smiles and fake ones. I know when she is happy and when she talked to me on the phone, even though she was panicking, I heard that glimpse of relief as she spoke to me. I felt it too the moment I heard her voice. Hearing her can light up my day.