Falling For A Villain-Peter Pan- Once Upon A Time

The test

Chapter 20

Clary's P.O.V.

What the heck just happened? He kissed my forehead. I was so confused. When he kissed me I felt chills down my spine. And I liked it. But I knew that this was just another game to him. After having some alone time I stood up and started to walk back to the camp. I came back to the camp to see the boys playing games. I sat on the floor and thought about what happened to those boys that came to Neverland. And what is Pan's story? What is the story that changed him, that made him like this? I really want to know. But I knew that he would never reveal his secrets. I was lost in my thoughts when something cold touched my skin by the scar that Pan did. I looked at my left side to see Brent and his dagger by my neck.

"I don't get why is Pan so obsessed with you." He spoke, and I raised my eyebrow. Brent hated my guts obviously and I didn't know why. I tried to be as far as I can from him because having Pan by my side is annoying enough. "He is not so harsh to you like he is to us." He said pressing his dagger harder against my scar. I flinched from the pain and glared at his brown eyes. I slowly got up his knife following me.

"I will not agree with that," I said and hit his hand so his dagger fell on the floor. He started to laugh and the other boys glanced over at us.

"I think that Pan just wants some action with you, and then he will send you back just like every other girl. And he will forget all about you." My eyes widened. So I'm not the first girl here. Interesting. " But the truth is, you are different. You are not crying, you play games, you are going to the training. But still, you are a girl. Weak, lonely, and I think that you just want to be loved. But no one is loving you. Am I right?" The rage started to boil inside me. I took my longer dagger out and turned my body to him. "Ooh, you want to fight. Then let us fight" He quickly took a dagger from his belt and attacked me but I blocked him. I hit him in the knee and he fell down. I kicked him with my leg in the ribs, getting a loud groan from him. He got up and swung the dagger at me, I offset the attack.

"You are right, I'm not like other girls" I blocked his attack once again. "Not a lot of girls went through what I have." I attacked him and he blocked it."Not a lot of girls were in pain like me. Not every girl was crying every night and wishing she was dead." I pushed him to the floor. My dagger on his neck. "Not every girl had to fight for herself. I did. I saved myself, I fixed myself. I'm my own hero." I told and pushed my dagger harder on his neck.

"But you are still weak, you are still no one, aren't you Clary? You are scared to be alone, to be unloved. You are here Clary in Neverland because you are lost and unloved. You are a lost girl. And you are searching for love. That's what Pan sees by you. He sees that you need love, and he will give it to you and then he will break you. And I can bet that something like that already happened in your past. I'm so sorry for you girl. "

My eyes were full of anger now. He pushed me from himself and stood up. He attacked me, he was leading the game. How did he know anything about this? I wanted to run away. I wanted to cry and hide. How can he know everything? How ?? Pan is the only person that knows. That fucking asshole.

"Clary, did you ever ask yourself who are you?" Brent asked me and hit my dagger with his. My thoughts stopped. I didn't think about this in a long time. Who am I? He pushed me to a tree hard, so it hurt. I gasped when he hit me with his leg in the knee. I kicked him with my elbow, and he moved away from me. Sweat was dripping from my forehead on the ground. I was watching how the drop of my sweat slowly started to disappear in the hard soil. Who am I? That question was spinning in my head. "I know the answer," Brent said coming closer to me.

"You are no one." He said and my grip around the dagger became tighter. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I'm someone. I'm me. I'm a part of this or whatever world I'm in. One drop of an Ocean beside other drops. 

"No," I uttered. 

"Then who are you?" He asked and finally, I looked him in the eyes.

"I'm a warrior," I said and attacked him. He blocked it and I smirked.

"Let's make a deal. If I win you will sleep in the cage, and you will tell me your fears. And if you win I will do whatever you want." He smirked and hit my dagger with his, making an X.
"Deal." He said and I pushed him with my leg. We were dancing with our daggers, and then I swung the dagger at him and cut his left cheek. He held his cheek and looked at me with anger. He swung his dagger at me and I blocked it. He tried again but I offset the attack and then I pushed him to the nearest tree and put my dagger on his neck. With my other hand, I removed the blood from his cheek and looked him in the eyes.

"I win," I said and smirked. Gasping for air I moved away from him. The boys started clapping. I forgot that they were even there.

"Well done Clary, well done." I heard Pan in distance. I turned around and saw him smirking."You passed the test." I narrowed my eyes.

"Test?" I asked my voice high.

"I wanted to see will you break down when he said those words to you. But you didn't. You are so much stronger than I thought." Is he joking? This was a fucking test?! He was playing with my emotions, my fears.  That's what Felix wanted to tell me. Pan is going to use my fears against me, he is going to use them to break me. He told this to Brent. God, I was so stupid. Why did I tell my fears to Pan? No, I won't let him win. He is not going to break me. I'm not going to allow this to happen to me, again. Alec hurt me enough, and I really don't want to go through the same pain again. I closed my eyes for a second to make the tears go away. Then I opened them and looked at Pan.

"I see what kind of game you are playing. You want to break me. But Pan, I'm not going to let you. And if you want to play a game like that, then let's play." I said grinning at him. Pan raised his eyebrow at me.

"Are you sure you want to begin a game with me?" He asked and I giggled putting the dagger back in my belt.

"You already have." I responded with a big simper on my face and walked into the deep dark jungle.