I get triggered. I go to you like you said to.
But you're not there.
I need you...
I convince myself that I'll be okay on my own. I don't want to bother you if you're not on.
I'm not good at dealing with stuff like this on my own.
I need you...
I just try to distract myself without bothering you.
I look at my pictures of you and work on doing the things you told me to.
I need you...
I'm trying to breathe. I can't calm down.
I go to text you but I tell myself that this time I'll be alright without you.
I need you...
I tried. I really did. I always try for you.
But I just couldn't do it this time...
I needed you...
