Her & I

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I got up turning off the tv and called for Rey. I opened the door to see Mikey tears welling up under his eyes, I paused "What happened?" I motioned him to come in and he broke down sitting at the table "I'm guessing you weren't told." he said between sobs, I shook my head, he looked up and took a deep breath "Mom and dad died this morning not long after I called you." I covered my mouth and felt hot tears stream down my face "The last time I talked to them they were trying to help me, now there dead, it's all my fault." Mikey shook his head "It's not your fault, it's a stupid drunk white girls fault. Gerard trust me they cared but they thought it was best to leave you be, they actually began funeral plans because you sent that suicide message to our family." I put my head in my hands, tears streaming down my face and arms. I heard the bedroom door open and I looked up, Rey ran over and hugged me asking what was wrong. I couldn't talk because of my crying. She got up and sat between us hugging us both, she didn't respond and let us cry under her arms for an hour. Mikey was able to have some composer and say what had happened, I got up and walked to our bedroom slamming the door and locking it. I was certain that it was my fault, when MCR ended I lived with my parents and spending the years sleeping depressed and high on pain killers, a few months ago I left then somehow got to where I am now. I heard Rey and Mikey talking, meeting each other, talking about what happened. I began crying even more the door handle jiggled and I heard Rey say "Here let me." there was a click and the door slowly opened and I just let it push me forward. I covered my face with my hair and hands, I was a bright red and had tear stains all over my face. Rey sat me up and kissed me "It's not your fault, and you need to talk to me, I will bug you till you talk to me. Mikey and Rey picked me up and forced me to the kitchen. I decided that the only way to fix anything was to talk to them about it. I sat on the counter and they sat either side of me, I vented everything to them with Rey holding at least my hand the whole time. I did feel better afterwards, but the thought of the last thing I said to them was that I was going to kill myself, regret had set in. I laid down in bed, only my face sticking out, Slipknot blaring in my earbuds, and the room dark other than little bit of city lights showing through the curtains. I fell asleep and had nightmares then they stopped and I heard Rey and Mikey talking about how to cheer me up. I smiled and got up, I put my arms around Rey's waist resting my head on her shoulder. She whispered in my ear "Are you ok? I know what it's like to lose your parents, I lost my own and know what you still like." I nodded kissing her cheek and then asking my brother what we should do for the day. Rey chimed in "I have tickets for Disneyland, we could go, I'll invite our friends, it's only ten minutes away." I nodded and Mikey jumped up "You are the best girlfriend Gerard has ever had!" she smiled and looked at me, we turned a light shade of red and I held her tighter. We got dressed and waited for Brendon, Sarah, and Pete. We went on the quick drive listening to all of our music then pulled into the "happiest place on earth" which is funny because everyone in the car was in all black like a funeral, but it was just normal us. We all acted like excited three year olds running around and Rey paused "Holy shit, guys, Star Wars." she pointed to a big Star Wars logo on one of the sections of the park. Pete & Mikey didn't have girlfriends so they hung out together acting like a couple holding hands and stuff, we had a lot of fun and went home tired all sleeping at our apartment. The next day I went to wake up Mikey, but when I opened the door my jaw dropped, I saw Mikey and Pete full on making out, my body froze. Mikey looked at me "It's not what it looks like! Actually it's exactly what it looks like." I whispered "Your gay?" he shrugged his shoulders "I just like people. Nothing is different about me, I'm the same as always." I didn't know what to do or how to respond. I just nodded my head with a shocked look on my face and walked away closing the door behind me. I went back to my room and sat on the edge of my bed. We were the only three awake and I didn't know what to do, I had to wait to talk to Rey, or anyone. After hours I felt like I could talk to him about it. "Your my bro, I love you & I'll support you know matter what." I hugged him & he letting out a sigh of relief hugging me back. He cried a bit but Rey called everyone to breakfast and everything was fine, everyone was finishing up there food and Mikey stood up telling everyone the truth about who he is, everyone was supportive. After that everyone went home and it was back to normal.