“You know when you just see someone, and you know it’s them? You don’t know how, why or when this person decided to be the one. But you just know they are. I don’t really know how to put it into words this whole situation; it’s been eating me alive. I mean, he’s a boy. I’m a boy. Since when though was it not okay to love another boy if you’re a boy? It doesn’t make sense. You shouldn’t be frowned upon because of it. But I don’t know why I’m the one feeling that way. Maybe it’s because I’m young and experimenting or whatever my mum likes to say. But it’s been going on for months now. I’ve told no one, not even Lou. I’d usually talk to Gemma about it; I can’t even do that though. It’s like, I’d take a bullet for him. I have to watch him ever so carefully when he’s off doing something idiotic. I’m so protective over him, and he just makes me happy. I’m not sure where any of this is leading in fact I’m scared. Because I bet Louis doesn’t even feel the same way, I bet if I told him he’d probably think I was a complete twat for liking him. A moron or something. He probably thought nothing of that kiss a few months back and that’s why I’m completely terrified. I really don’t know what the hell to do and I feel like writing about it is the only way I can express how I really feel. Even then, you’re just a journal, you’re not a person. You can’t communicate. It’s so godamn frustrating when all the lads know that something’s wrong but I can’t actually say it. I wish I could, I wish I could be so confident about it. But I don’t even know if they’d accept it. I mean, I think they would. But wouldn’t they think it’s weird knowing that one of their band members may fancy or even be in love with another member? What even is love though? How do I know this? I’m so fucking confused. I’m lost. I really don’t know what to say or do. I’m even rambling as I write. – I know sitting here, watching Louis back stage that there’s something there. He’s taught me how to properly play football now, I can take a penalty but I’m still shit. He says we can work on it. He knows basically everything about me and vice versa, people think it’s so strange how close we are. So maybe it does mean something, maybe I’m not just being my delusional self. But then again, I’m 16 years old what do I know? What will I know? I guess that’s what time is for. Because only time will tell, right? I have to go now, we’re starting our first gig for the X Factor tour, and I’m buzzing. Speak in a bit.
Harry .xx” -
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A Moment of Impact - A Larry Stylinson Story
Fanfic"I like you Harry, I’m going to say yes." And with that, it was success. Despite the fact the young boy only got two yeses, with an unimpressed Louis Walsh, that was okay. He was satisfied with two, he was going to bootcamp. "You’ve got three yeses...
