The Delinquent's First Love

The Delinquent's First Love - Sixteen

The Delinquent's First Love - Sixteen

I could hear mom's whimper from downstairs. Where was I? I looked around and saw that I was at home, in my room. My heart beat like it was in a race. I took calming breaths but it somehow ended ragged. With a shaky hand, I reached for the doorknob. There's something in me telling me not to open it but I still did. When the door was finally open, my eyes widened and I stiffened on my spot. 

"No!" I shouted. 

I jerked up almost immediately. Looking around again, I saw that I was back in my dorm room. So that was just a dream. I didn't want to see that dream again. It was horrible. 

The time on my nightstand said that it was only five in the morning. Scarlet was not on her bed anymore. I didn't want to go back to sleep anymore so I decided to take my morning jog. That would take my mind off of my dream.

It was not a fine day. There were dark clouds from somewhere a little afar. I walked back to my dorm after taking an hour jog. 

"Jessica," someone said from behind. 

I looked back to see Eric. "What are you doing here?" I asked, narrowing my eyes at him. 

"I just dropped mom. She needed to be here this early. My class won't start until nine so I thought of walking around and I saw you-" 

I cut him off. "Okay, then," I said, smiling. "I was just going back to my room to freshen up. So, I'm going now." 

"Can we talk?" 

"Maybe later." He just nodded. "See you around." I spun around and walked back to the dorm. All I wanted to do earlier was hug him and tell him not to go away but my mind was telling me not to. 

I loved him so much, I was sure of that. But I was scared to admit it because there were a lot of people that didn't want us to be together. It was sad. If only mom was still alive then I would have someone to ask about this thing. But she's somewhere at peace already. Was she at peace? I hoped so, together with dad. 

My walk to the hallway to my room became slower than before. Why did it matter for other people's opinion about Eric and I being together? Eric loves me and I love him but why was I avoiding him? Why I was considering other people's opinion whereas I didn't consider mine? Maybe I needed time, but I never looked into the possibilities of considering my feelings for him. 

I stopped on my tracks. Other people's opinion shouldn't matter. I had to tell Eric that I love him and I wanted to be with him. But what if Mr. Cameron does something bad to him? I knew what that guy was capable of doing. I couldn't risk Eric's life. But if I didn't tell Eric now my feelings, I might not be able to say it again. 

And so, I ran back downstairs. I had to tell Eric that I would be really happy to be his girlfriend. This was where my life would start. This was the new life that I had been waiting for. This was my wish to be happy. 

Principal Hopkin's office was locked but I could see her through the small window of the door. It seemed like she's really busy. I had to know where Eric was. So I knocked and knocked until the door open. 

Principal Hopkin crossed her arms over her chest, raising an eyebrow before asking, "What is it, Ms. Spencer?" 

I took a deep breath. "Principal Hopkin, may I know where's Eric?" 

"If this is about—" 

"Please," I begged. "There's just something important that I want to say to him." She was staring at me, but not in a way that she was glaring. It was a look of a mother. Should I convince her that I would not put Eric's life in danger? Maybe I should start saying something about that. "Look. I know that you don't want your son to have anything to do with me, but you gotta understand that..."