When the trio becomes the duo

I miss them

Sorry I meant to put this on before posting but I wanted to put a trigger warning.

Zosia is sitting there with her back to the hospital, her legs dangling down, she had been crying in to her hands but somehow she felt as though she couldn't cry any longer like she didn't have any tears left in her. Suddenly a voice spoke calling her name but she ignored it.

"Zosia, come away from the edge" Oliver called over to her, softly though he didn't want to scare her.

"They look so small, running around, fixed to their own time tables. When your their it all seems so important. We're the most important things in our own little worlds, inside our heads." Zosia tells him, looking down at the ground below her.

Oliver doesn't say anything but moves closer to Zosia.

"...Your problems are so big, unavoidable and you have to live life around them. But from up here what are they? You can't tell what anyone is running from or too. They're just walking and you have no idea what is going on in their heads, whether there okay or just putting on a brave face. If they never cry for help then we only realise they need help when there breathless but by then it's too late they're ..... gone" Zosia continues.

Ollie moves standing next to Zosia, putting his arm around her.

"Come off the edge and we can talk about this" Oliver suggests.

"Nothing can bring the back from the dead ..... It's all my fault! Every time he said it was his last time doing something I got angry, I didn't want to believe him. He wanted to do all these thing be reckless because it didn't matter anymore. Go to the beach watch his last war documentary but we didn't because of me, It's all my fault" Zosia sobbed.

"Maybe he didn't get to do those things but that wasn't your fault. I'm sure spending those last few days with you and Dom meant so much more to him. You were all together and that's all that mattered to him." Oliver tried to reassure her, as she sobbed.

"It was my fault, all I did was shout at him, tell him he was being unfair and he wasn't" Zosia told him.

"It wasn't .." Oliver tried to say.

"No, I knew his prognosis, deep down I knew he was right. I could have been there for him but I wasn't, I'm selfish. I put myself first, I should have put him first, I knew, I knew he was dying but I was selfish anyway. I don't deserve to be here, no one cares really." Zosia said shuffling closer to the edge.

"Zosia, don't do this, there are lots of people that care about you." Oliver tells her.

"No one cares Ollie, no one was there when I needed them Dad shrugged me off as not important, You were too busy working and Dom well he probably hasn't noticed I'm missing. But it's not about me It's about Arthur, I wasn't there for him not properly." Zosia replies.

"I'm going to go and be with them Ollie, Mama and Arthur." Zosia tells him.

"But they wouldn't want that Zosia, they would be proud of you, they would want you to stay here, get better" Oliver tells her taking hold of her hand.

"How do you know Mama would be proud?" Zosia questions

"Because there is no one that wouldn't be proud of you, just come down okay" Oliver tells her.

Zosia contemplates this for a wile before turning around, Oliver pulls her off the ledge gently and in for a cuddle.

"I miss them so much Ollie" Zosia says finally breaking down in tears.

Oliver squeezes her a little tighter and directs her over to the door.

A/N - A massive thankyou to lilliputian_shoelace Who has been giving me ideas for this story and helped me to Write this chapter, I really am grateful for all the advice and help xx