Been occupied with thoughts and planning something... I feel like I'm partly going crazy at times, or most of the time now. If I was to go, would anyone remember me? Or would everything stop, after awhile like it has for Zeke? Would everyone, write nice long tributes, but then stop after a month or two? Would anyone cry? Would anyone stop me? What if, the one that I want to stop me, left again? I want my twin back so much, I miss Zeke... Josh is who knows where. And one of my friends lied to me and said they were dead. People tell me to "just be happy he's back". He could've told me that he had to leave because if he would, then it'd help him with his problem. YEah, you said sorry, but you think that what you did was justified. You don't even care. I was ready to go that night right before your "death". And all you said was, 'don't' and 'no'. But then the next day, you "died". And wrote that chapter, and I cried. I haven't cired since Zeke. Now I feel hurt and anger because you had no right to do what you did, that;s how I felt anyway. You could've said that you were gonna leave here and possibly not come back. Then at least you weren't lying. But no, you had to fake your death. I'm sad because you're different, and had given barely an explanation.
I'm preoccupied with these thoughts, I wouldn't be doing it because of a relationship problem or something dumb. I miss Zeke terribly and I have things in my life that I don't tell. Who knows, maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow...
