I jump into relationships fast.
I think thoughts that I think are supposed to be there.
But really, in reality, I rush it.
I rush, because I think that I like them already. (crush wise)
I rush it because, I'm afraid that I'll become nothing.
I rush because, the last time I waited, he fell for him.
I rush because, I'm afraid I'll be a distant memory.
I rush because, I hate being alone.
I rush because I don't know love.
I rush because there's a thrill.
I rush because I don't know any better.
I rush because, no one's ever waited for me.
I rush because, no one's ever stayed.
I rush because, no one takes the time to know me.
Like I took the time to know them.
I rush because I live in the past.
I rush because I can't let go of the regrets.
I live in the past because that's where some happiness lies.
I live in the past because back then, I had emotions that lasted.
I live in the past because that's when I was loved....I think.
It was before, I'd slip in and out of depression.
I'm not bipolar, but I have depression.
Fuck late nights and lonely thoughts. RIP
idfk probably will delete this chapter.
