Perfect, Inside and Out

Not so Perfect....

Sophia's POV 

"Soph? Did you hear me?" 

"Yeah sorry, I'm so happy for you guys....I am...um...cooking, so I have to go but I will call you later." I ended the call staring at the empty stove. My best friend is moving on without me. We had it all planned, we were going to live and share everything together. She is moving ahead and I am just stuck. 

A few minutes go by and I just stared at one spot thinking. I only turn around when Jesse walks down the stairs. I tried to hide my tears when I saw him, but he had already seen me and was immediately concerned. 

"Sophia, what's wrong? I heard you answer the phone, who was it? Is everything okay?" He pulled at my chin trying to meet my eye. "Hey" he said softly "look at me, what happened?" I caved and dove into his shoulder. All I needed was a hug, and it seemed like he knew that because he wrapped my shoulders in his arms and somehow made me feel safe. My eyes dried and I knew I needed to tell him what I was thinking. I just didn't want to scare him away. I pulled away and walked into the living room. 

He looked concerned so I just started talking. 

"I'm 34 now..." 

He smiles and sits next to me touching my back and saying "What?!? I thought you were 32! Have you been lying to me? This is outrageous..." I gave him a smile, but I wasn't in the mood to be cheered up by his jokes. He immediately got serious and seemed ready to talk about anything. 

"I..." I stumbled to figure out what I was trying to say. "My friend, Arielle just called and told me she is pregnant."

He seemed confused but tried to play along. "So you are sad for her?" 

"No, i am happy for her. She deserves it." I looked down to avoid crying more. "I want a baby, I always have but I didn't want to scare you. If you don't that is totally okay because I love you and I don't want to lose you so just please think about it before you break up with me." 

I spit my words out like they were burning hot. He just smiled, which made me mad. He acted like I knew what he was thinking and could be at ease with just a smile. So I snapped at him; "Say something."

"I am not breaking up with you...." 

"So what are you doing? Because you look scared." He just searched the ground with his eyes, seemingly avoiding mine. He silently stood up and started to walk away. Right before he walked through the door he said, "I just need to think." 

TO BE CONTINUED 

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Sorry that this is such a short chapter, the next one will be longer I promise :)