November 2013, that was a fucked up month for me.
I lost my grandma.. and that really did it for me.. the real depression started.
It was on a thursday night i heard that she was in the hospital...
She only need to get her blood tested, but i turned out to be something more worse.
I remember telling my dad "if she passes away and i'm at school , please call the school". The next day friday.. i had this terrible feeling something bad was about to happen and it did. At 2AM my dad woke me up and told me that we had to get to the hospital.. something was wrong.
He said that to when my granddad passed away "we need to get to the hospital , it isn't going alright with granddad"... He used the exact same words.. so the i knew.
The ride to the hospital was 1 and a half hour. I cried the whole ride. I just knew something was wrong.
We came there and they said to us .. "she isnt gonna make it be we are waiting for the rest of the family to come".
She put up a good fight though.
My mom brought me to her room... the way she laid on that bed was like she was sleeping but still trouble with breathing. I couldnt stay in that room to long... i just cried..
At one point my aunt came to us and said "she is gone".. the worse three words i heard that day. I just broke down..
But what was to expact? , it was so unexpected no one knew it was gonna be this short.. No one knew she was sick.. you know why?. Because she thought she was a burden .. the same thoughts i get...
But even if she went to the docter earlier , she had a quite long fight in front of her.
With chemo's and stuff.
And she really missed my granddad so yeah ,, positive part about this story is that .. they are together again :), and i try to focus on those thoughts.
