What keeps me going is the fact that there is so much to live for. And that there is so much i still want to see, i want to do.
And that i cant give up, i wont hurt only me , but my family and those few people who actually care about me. I dont wanna hurt those people, so i just suck it up and go.
A few weeks ago i went to a 5 seconds of summer concert. And that was so fucking awesome!!.
The best night i had in a times :D.
SOoo you could say music really helps me. Whenever i am down or sad i listen to music. It just helps me alot, i like to more sad, deeper songs when i am sad or depressed. But yeah i also listen to alot of fun and happy songs.
Music can really change my mood.
5sos music in particularly, they really helpt me. The new album they made Sounds good Feels good, there are a few songs on that invisible, broken home, the girl who cried wolf and Jet black heart who really spoke for me. I probably never meet them , so i can never tell them in person how much they helped me and that just through music.
I am so glad that i made it through the darkest nights and darkest days to see them in concert, because i am not lying when i say 'that it was the best night i ever had, that i had the feeling that life was worth for something' and it is sounds is pathetic to say that stuff but it is true.
And what the main reason is that gets me through this hell. Is that i dont want to let those people win who bring me down, i want to show people that i am strong , and that i am willing to try.
