Being Aimee Grace

Chapter 20: That Perfect Girl Is Gone

Chapter 20: That Perfect Girl Is Gone

Mackenzie's P.O.V

I took a deep breath as I faced the crowd. I looked at my little sister who smiled at me nervously as she waited for me to call her on the stage. I was talking at an event that was based on special educational needs. I leaned towards the microphone as the voice screamed inside my head to run away and hide. But they weren't going to beat me. Not today.

"So I guess everyone already knows who I am." I laughed nervously as I took another deep breath. "But in case you don't, my name is Mackenzie but I like to be called Mac and I have ADHD and Dyslexia. My little sister and I are going to be talking about what it's like to live with these issues but before we do we would like to sing some songs that relate to our issues. So the first song I'm going to be singing is a song called Believe in me."

I'm losing myself
Trying to compete
With everyone else
Instead of just being me
Don't know where to turn
I've been stuck in this routine
I need to change my ways
Instead of always being weak

I don't wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful...today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways
So you see, I just wanna believe in me

The mirror can lie
Doesn't show you what's inside
And it, it can tell you you're full of life
It's amazing what you can hide
Just by putting on a smile

I don't wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful...today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways
So you see, I just wanna believe in me

I'm quickly finding out
I'm not about to break down
Not today
I guess I always knew
That I had all the strength to make it through

Not gonna be afraid
I'm going to wake up feeling beautiful...today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways
So you see, now, now I believe in me

Now I believe in me

Everyone clapped and cheered as soon as I finished singing. I smiled and thanked them before I signaled to Aimee to come on stage. She ran towards me and threw her arms around my legs. I picked her up and she snuggled into me. Everyone started to aww at Aimee's cuteness before I looked at her. "Would you like to introduce the next song Aimee?" I asked her.

Aimee didn't need any encouragement she grabbed the mic making everyone in the audience laugh. "This next song is about not hiding your disorder. It's about letting go and embracing it. Just because you have an illness or a disorder that not everyone can see doesn't mean you need to hide it. Sometimes by talking about it you help people understand what you are going through."

"And this song is also dedicated to my Nana. I'm no longer going to hide my sensory issues because it's an inconvenience to you. I'm proud to be different and if you can't accept that then the problem is with you not me. I'm sorry Nana but that perfect girl is gone."

Aimee passed the mic to me before I placed her down on the floor. She ran towards one of the tech guys who was holding a microphone for her and took it off of him. She ran towards me a second later and sat down beside me as I sat on the stool in front of the piano that was on the stage

"You ready?" I asked her as I looked at her. She nodded her head as the music started playing.

The snow glows white on the mountain tonight

Not a footprint to be seen

A kingdom of isolation,

And it looks like I'm the queen.

The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside

Couldn't keep it in, heaven knows I tried!

Don't let them in, don't let them see

Be the good girl you always have to be

Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know

Well, now they know!

Let it go, let it go

Can't hold it back anymore

Let it go, let it go

Turn away and slam the door!

I don't care

What they're going to say

Let the storm rage on,

The cold never bothered me anyway!

It's funny how some distance

Makes everything seem small

And the fears that once controlled me

Can't get to me at all!

It's time to see what I can do

To test the limits and break through

No right, no wrong, no rules for me I'm free!

Let it go, let it go

I am one with the wind and sky

Let it go, let it go

You'll never see me cry!

Here I stand

And here I'll stay

Let the storm rage on!

My power flurries through the air into the ground

My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around

And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast

I'm never going back,

The past is in the past!

Let it go, let it go

And I'll rise like the break of dawn

Let it go, let it go

That perfect girl is gone!

Here I stand

In the light of day

Let the storm rage on,

The cold never bothered me anyway!

Authors Note:

So I know it's more songs then anything else but I hope you guys like this chapter anyway.