My whole life, I was always dreaming to have stable growth. Just by building my dreams and wondering about the life that I will have once I finish school, it excites me. Everything is all set, I already calculated the timetable of my life. I might not be able to reach my ultimate dream job, but at least I was dreaming to have my dream life.
But nothing goes as I planned.
"The doctor said that you are eight weeks pregnant." My tears automatically fell as I heard what Hana just said when I asked her what's truly wrong with me.
"No..." I said as I shook my head. Hana went to me and rested my head on her shoulders as she stroked the side of my hair. Hyewon also went to me and squeezed my hand.
"Don't worry we're here." She gently said while looking at me with teary eyes.
"You guys don't understand," I said in the middle of my cries.
I'm pregnant! And the father of the child is someone who already has a family!
"Eottoke?" I whispered with so much despair and regret. I cried on Hana's shoulders as I tightly clutched her coat.
I don't know what to do anymore. Everything is all ruined. How am I going to face my parents and tell them that I failed them, I failed my self. How am I going to tell Mark that I got pregnant by someone when we are in a relationship? How am I going to live my life?
"We should tell Mark about it. He deserves to know that he shouldn't be fooling around trying to become an idol, he's now a father and that child that you are bearing is the living proof." I shook my head and looked at Hyewon.
Mark is not fooling around. He's chasing his dreams, he's slowly getting there. And he should continue his journey, but this time, I'm not going to be there for him anymore because I shouldn't be in the very first place. Besides...
"I didn't do it with him. He's not the father of my child." I firmly said. Hana pulled out from hugging me and looked at me with confusion. I slowly nodded and bit my lower lip.
"I've been hiding this fact on myself but I think it's going to be revealed anyway, considering that I am in this situation..." I stopped and took a deep breath, summoning every courage that I have because strength is all that I have left.
"Mark and I never did it. I was drunk with this certain man and I wrongly did it with him. And I deserve to be hated because..." I scoffed as I felt my warm tears streaming on my cheeks. I couldn't see Hyewon and Hana's reaction because my vision is all blurry but I guess they are both disgusted with me. Who wouldn't?
"That man is happily married and... they already have a child." I finally said and broke down.
For the past weeks, I tried to bury everything in the deepest part of my brain and tried to conceal my pain with the fact that it's already over and it's not going to happen anymore because I will be extra responsible and careful next time. When the truth is... it's just starting. Life is cruel and this is my karma. I guess being extremely guilty and sorry for your actions is not enough, there will always be consequences and it is bigger than what you have done.
"It's fine, we're going to figure this out together. We will be there for you. We're not going to leave you in this battle alone."
I buried my chin on Hana's shoulders when she wrapped her arms around my neck whispering comforting words in my ears. Hyewon bent down and held my hand, she smiled at me and mouthed "it's okay".
I am so thankful for Hyewon and Hana's support because if it weren't for them, I will definitely lose my sanity. Hana, the one who is fond of the medical field always watches over my health. She always reminds me of my meals, my medicine, and my work duration. Hyewon is there to morally support me, she even gave me a book that I should read when I'm feeling down.
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Midnight Walk (Mark Tuan Short Story)
Fanfiction"Soulmates don't leave each other." Six years ago, Cha Eun was a college girl and Mark was a trainee. Six years later, the brightest part of her youth became one of the stars. Cha Eun and Mark were inexplicably bonded and drawn by forces beyond th...
