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Chapter 24

Hiya loveys❤️

I've been getting a lot of messages on all forms of social media asking me when I'm going to update. There's no schedule, I'm in my last year of school at the moment so there's a lot of shit to be done however i really want to try and make an effort with this book as I haven't updated in 4 months and that is completely unacceptable regarding the fact that I, in no way, mentioned why i would be taking such a long break. I got inspired to write again as my grades in english dropped alot and blah blah blah. Not only that but more rather the fact i missed writing and responding to you guys and i have a really strong urge to carry on with this story as i fell in love with writing it but my love lacked slightly in the past months. Despite that, my love is back again stronger than ever an i am fully prepared to pay you guys back.

ALSO SIDENOTE/ WARNING- I WAS FUCKING BAWLING MY EYES OUT WRITING THIS CHAPTER MAN!

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Tristans PoV

"Honestly? I don't think it's for the best. Yeah I think this is better like this." I heard the gruff voice of Brad as my eyes adjusted to my surroundings. "I honestly have no idea why-" He let out an exasperated sigh. "It's not exactly beneficial is it?" I heard him snap and some muffled sobs come from what sounded like the phone. I rubbed my eyes and peeped out the sheets to see Brad sat at the foot of the bed hunched over phone pressed to his ear, his knuckled whitened with obvious discomfort. I couldn't see his other hand yet I instantly knew he was gnawing at his nails, a habit he had when agitated or distressed in any way. Thoughts gathered and accumulated in my brain as to what he was talking about and whom he was talking to.

"Listen I'll tell him and then he can decide ok?" His voice cracked. "OK you stay safe yeah? You too. Bye." I heard him lock his phone and it went silent for a short while. I heard a short sob and I swear I felt my heart crack in two. His posture was even more hunched by this point and both hands were covering his face. I heard him inhale sharply and stand up. I saw him harshly swipe the tears away with a rough hand and go into the bathroom and the sound of the tap running filled the room.

I sat up and grabbed a pillow and held it to me tightly and prepared to inevitably ask him what happened. Deep down I could tell it had something to do with James as the sentencing was due soon. I had told Bradley how I wanted to stay out of the whole thing as I felt it would make the bereavement process a whole lot harder for me to cope with. I wouldn't even listen to when the pathologist released the results of the Post-Mortem. 

Brad walked in and halted when he saw me sat up. He twisted his face into an unconvincing smile. "Did you have a good sleep?" 

"It was alright yeah." The room was silent as I stared into his red and tired eyes. He instantly looked away.

He cleared his throat and shook his head lightly shaking his curls that were already in disarray. "I was thinking that we could go out for breakfast if you want, that's only if you want. I mean we don't have t-"

"You do know you can tell me anything and everything right?" I asked a midst a heavy intake of breath. He nodded but the grievous look on his face remained immobile, eyes still avoiding my gaze.

"Then tell me." I used all my might to remain strong with my words however my voice cracked and a lump arose in my throat somehow acting as a blockage of some type preventing any words from rolling off of my tongue. "Look at me." He continued to divert his eyes from meeting mine. "Please." He looked straight into my eyes and my eyes burned with the familiar feeling of tears threatening to spill.

"I'm trying to keep you safe Tristan. God I'm really fucking trying." His voice was wavering and a stray tear rolled silently down his cheek which he quickly brushed away harshly.

"I don't see why you're harming yourself to keep me safe. I know it's killing you Brad. Honestly I can tell." It wasn't until I tasted salt that I realised I was crying. 

He let out a soft barely audible sob and grabbed his coat pulling it on roughly. 

"Brad please. Just tell me why."

"I- I just- I just care about you way too much." He looked down and walked out slamming the door, shattering my heart and leaving me in a cold room with the rain tapping against the window pane.

I looked over at my phone on the bedside table and reached for it, pale hand trembling. I unlocked it and went onto my contacts. I felt my stomach start churning as i scrolled slowly.

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My heart froze. I felt as if everything shut down. 

Rip it off like a band aid Tris for fucks sake.

I scrolled down past his contact, my heart trying to break out my chest and go back onto his contact and ring him. However I subconsciously clicked on another contact.

I gnawed at my fingernails as the endless droning of the ringing chimed into my empty lifeless soul.

"Tris darling?" The familiar voice spread warmth through my icy bloodstream.

"Tris? Are you there?"

"Hi." I said almost not even saying it.

We stayed silent on the phone until she broke the silence.

"I spoke to Bradley this morning. Did he mention anything?"

I shook my head and waited for her reply until I realised she couldn't see me.

"I haven't seen you in a while."

"Yeah. No i'm really sorry. I truly am it's just been-" I took a long pause. "It's just been you know."

"Yeah." She sighed. "Yeah I do."

We stayed in silence just appreciating eachother's company. "I was wondering if you wanted to come over and help me sort out his room. I haven't touched it. I haven't even been in there yet. I know he would want you to have a lot of it." There was yet another pause. This is of course when you're ready. I don't want to go up there without you."

"You're his mother. I feel as if i'd be taking something away from you." I said, my voice muffled by my teeth biting at my nails.

"You know Tris, I know you were as important to him as I was." She sniffed. "I have to go. I trust you'll stay safe yeah?" 

"Yeah I'm good." I couldn't help but smile to myself.

"I'll talk to you soon ok?" 

"Ok."

"Look after yourself Tristan. " And with that she hung up leaving me sat on a bed with a warm feeling inside my chest replacing the icy block that was my heart merely five minutes ago. And for the first time in weeks, I felt as if everything was going ok.

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