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thirty nine

"What?!" They all yelled. "When did he— what the hell?" Yoongi asked.

"This morning. His mom just called me. She wants us to go to their house, now."

They were all shocked. Hoseok, their best friend for several years, is dead. He's actually dead.

They all threw the games away and climbed into Seokjin's car. He drove off to Hoseok's family's house in silence. They left the car and stood in front of the front door.

Seokjin knocked and waited for his mom to open up. As soon as she did, she let them in. They walked into the living room and saw Hoseok's dad crying. His mom was crying too.

"H-he's gone. The police called a-and told me what happened. He shot himself in the head right before he threw himself in the ocean from that bridge! My baby is gone! He killed himself! And all he left was this note!" She cried, throwing the note at the guys.

Yoongi picked it up and read it out loud for the others to hear.

"Dear mom, dad and my friends, I'm sorry to say this but by the time you read this, I'll be long gone. I apologize for whatever harm I've caused my parents and friends. I'm sorry. I have a reason for doing this but I can't tell you, mom. And I'm sorry dad. I love you so much. I do have to say, though. I have a person in mind that I blame, for all this." Yoongi gulped as he read the next line. "I blame syubbie. I know you might read this one day so I blame you. I blame you for hurting me to the point where I go and kill myself. I hope you die, too. I hate you so much."

Yoongi felt the bead of sweats fall down his forehead as everyone started tearing up.

"Who's syubbie?!" His mom yelled. "I want to find that syubbie person and kill them! They did this to my son! Who is that person?!" She was full-on sobbing.

Yoongi was the only one who knew who syubbie was.

And it was him.

That's what Hoseok called him.

Syubbie.

-

Everyone was back home. But Jimin was with Yoongi. Yoongi didn't talk to him, though. He just started feeling guilty for Hoseok's death. It's my fault, he thought, it really is.

Whenever he looked at Jimin, he felt guilty. Because he picked him over Hoseok, Hoseok is now dead.

"Hyung." Jimin said. They were on Yoongi's bed, trying to fall asleep. Jimin had his head on Yoongi's chest. Suddenly, Yoongi sat up and gave his back to Jimin. "Yoongi?" Jimin's voice cracked. You could hear the hurt in his voice. Yoongi put his head back onto the pillow and tried so hard not to turn back and hug the younger.

Jimin made some space in between them and turned around, giving Yoongi his back too. He frowned as a tear fell. He quickly wiped away the tear and tried to stay quiet. And from doing so, he fell asleep. But Yoongi couldn't. He stayed awake.

He stayed awake until the next morning.