Depression Override

Suicidal

It felt so nice. Being happy. It was like a whole other world. I was lost and now, I feel like I'm slowly coming back. And it's all thanks to one person. Natsu. Who knew that only one person could brighten up your entire world.

After my tears had dried up and I had calmed down, it began to rain. We got up and left to my house. As he pulled up on my driveway, he held my arm before I got out the car.

"It's okay, Luce. I understand you". I gave him a small smile and walked to the front door. I went inside to a silent and cold home. I went to the kitchen and found Virgo crying on the table. I ran up to her and held her shoulder with my hand. "What's wrong Virgo?! What happened?!"

"It's your friend...Aquarius."

"Aquarius?" Aquarius was my best friend and I would always go to her when I had a problem but when my mother died, she left and no one knew anything about her until a year later. When my father told me that she was in California, I was so happy. She was my best friend and even now a days I would send her a message once in a while. But lately, I hadn't heard anything from her.

"WHAT HAPPENED TO AQUARIUS!?!?"

"She got into a car crash. She's...no longer with us."

"Virgo what do you mean by that?"

"SHE'S DEAD LUCY!!!DEAD!!!"

I couldn't believe it. I ran out the door not even knowing where I was going. All I knew, is that I had to get away. I ran and ran. I swore that I wasn't going to stop myself this time. No matter what, I was going to do it. I was going to kill myself.

I ran to the cliff a couple of miles away from my house. I always went there to think. But this time, it was going to be way worse.

I got there and stared out at the city. A city that had caused me so much pain and remorse. I was ready to end this war. The war between sadness and happiness. I saw a black Mercedes pulling up on the road. I knew exactly who it was. But he wasn't going to stop me. I was determined. He quickly got out the car and began running towards me. As I was about to jump off, I felt a hand grab my arm and pull me away from the edge. I pulled my arm away from his grip and jumped. The air hitting my face felt wonderful. I thought, it's finally over. My pain, my sadness, and my regret was finally going to go away and I was finally going to be happy. I felt his arms wrap around my waist. Why was he saving me? Did he not understand that I wanted to die? Did he not want me to be happy? I kicked trying to get out of his grip but he was too strong. As soon as we got to the road, he let me go and I started running back but he held my hand and wouldn't let go.

"LUCY STOP!"

"NATSU WHAT THE HELL! LET ME GO!" I said trying to get away.

"NO LUCY! I AM NOT GOING TO LET YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF!"

"WHY NATSU WHY!? DONT YOU WANT ME TO BE HAPPY?"

"YES I DO BUT THIS IS NOT THE SOLUTION!"

"YES IT IS! WHAT IS THE WHOLE POINT OF LIVING WHEN EVERYONE IS SNATCHED AWAY FROM YOU OUT OF NOWHERE! WHAT IS THE POINT WHEN YOU HAVE NO ONE! WHAT IS THE POINT WHEN YOU HAVE NOTHING TO LOOK UP TO! I USED TO BE SO HAPPY! THEN EVERYTHING I LOVED WAS TAKEN FROM ME! WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE AS MUCH AS I LOVED THEM, WITH ALL YOU HEART, AND YOU CANT JUST TURN THAT EMOTION WHEN THEY ARE TAKEN FROM YOU, AND IF IT CANT BE LOVE THAT YOU FEEL, THEN...IT BECOMES HATE! THAT IS WHAT I FEEL! HATE! I HATE THE FACT THAT EVERYTHING I LOVE IS TAKEN AWAY FROM ME! NEXT THING YOU KNOW, YOU'RE LEAVING ME BECAUSE I AM A DEPRESSED PERSON WHO NEEDS HELP BUT IS TO STUBBORN TO UNDERSTAND THAT!

"Wait. So does that mean you...love me?"

I was shocked at what I had said. But said the truth.

"YES NATSU I LOVE YOU AND I FEEL LIKE YOU ARE GOING TO LEAVE ME! I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THEY DAY WHEN I AM FINALLY HAPPY, BUT THAT DAY JUST DOESNT SEEM TO ARRIVE! BUT WHEN IM WITH YOU IM HAPPY AND I LIKE THAT BUT THE SINGLE THOUGHT THAT YOU MIGHT LEAVE ME ONE DAY HURTS! A LOT! I HAVE BEEN PATIENT BUT SLOWLY IM LOSING FAITH! SO PLEASE...PLEASE..."

"HELP ME!"

He pulled me into his arms and hugged me.

"Please just look me in the eyes and tell me its okay."

"Luce, everything will be okay. I promise. I need to say something."

"Natsu please. Don't make me sad. Don't make me cry more than I already have."

"I love you, Lucy. I always have. Since the very beginning I knew I wanted to be with you. Luce, I will love you till the end of time."

I began crying again. But once again came the After Tears. The Tears of Joy. It had started raining a while ago.

"Here, have my jacket or you'll catch a cold."

He wrapped his jacket around my body. It was surprisingly warm.

"And Lucy, I would never leave you. Because I want to be your hero. I want to be the one who makes you happy. I want to be the one who brings brightness into your life."

"Natsu, thank you. Thank you so much."

We got into his car and he began driving me home. When we arrived, he got out the car with me and went inside. As soon as I walked in the door, Virgo came running towards me and hugged me.

"Ohh princess I was so worried I was about to call the cops but I decided to call Natsu instead. I told him you ran out and didn't come back so he began to look for you and here you are. I knew I could count on him to bring you back home."

"Thanks Virgo" I said and walked upstairs with Natsu behind me. We went into my room and I changed into some dry clothes. I sat down on my bed and he pulled me into a hug. I was still kind of sad but not as sad as before. Of course I had just lost a best friend, but I had Natsu to comfort me. He craddled my body in his arms and soon I fell asleep. I knew I wanted to be with him for the rest of my life. And I knew he would be the one to bring me happiness.