Depression Override

The Departing

I couldn't believe what was going on. Why would this happen to me? To us? I let go of the phone and dropped to the floor. The tears were flowing out of my eyes like a river. Like a cascade pouring into a river with rocks that the water hit with, creating splashes and wild waves as they went down the river that my tears had created. I could hear his voice calling me, screaming my name, but I didn't want to pick up the phone. I was too scared. I didn't want to have to listen to more. The pain was unbearable. All I wanted to do was go back to that cliff and jump again, but this time, there would be no one to save me. That was okay because I just wanted it all to end. But despite what I wanted, I wasn't going to do it. Because then I would never get to see Natsu again. Or feel him, or touch him, or kiss him. So I wasn't going to do it. I think he realized what was going on and stopped calling my name. His breathing was the only thing I heard now.

After calming myself down, his voice was heard again. He talked calmly, and peacefully. His soothing voice made me feel like everything was going to be alright. But it wasn't. It was just a voice. Not reality. And pretty soon, I had to snap out of my thoughts. I got back up and picked up the phone, but nothing came out of my mouth. The words had escaped my mind. I didn't know what to say. I didn't even want to say anything. Kinda just felt like dropping to the floor again. That was easier than having to talk.

"Look, I can't exactly go over right now, but I'll visit when I can. Just promise me you won't do anything crazy okay?"

"...okay..."

He hung up the phone. I set it one the table and walked upstairs to my room. I threw myself on my bed and stuffed my face on the pillow. I screamed. To the top of my lungs. To the point where my head hurt and it felt like I was going to have a heart attack. I think I fell asleep because I woke up later that day when the bell was rung. I got up and ran to the door.

When I opened it, all I could do was cry, and throw myself into his arms. We both fell to the floor, and I just kept crying as he hugged me and rubbed my back and told me it was okay. After calming down once again, he picked me up bridal style and carried me to my room. There, he lay me down on the bed and then laid down besides me. I curled up into a little ball and dig my face into my knees. I felt his arms surround my body and pull me closer to him. I could feel his warmth, it made me feel safe.

"When are you leaving?" I asked, wondering how much time we had left together.

"In a week."

I took my face out and stared into his eyes.

"Natsu, please don't leave me."

"I'm sorry, I have too. But I'll come back for you. I promise. We can buy a house and live together and we can even work together, once I get settled of course, but we can do all types of stuff together, and eventually, we will get married and build a family and grow old together and die in peace."

"Promise?" I said with a cracky voice, tears flowing down my eyes.

"Promise."

We stayed like that for a while, enjoying the moment. He pulled me away and told me to wait in my room; he had to go get something from his car. I wondered what it could be. When he walked back in the room, his hands were behind his back. He told me to stand up in front of him. He got on his knees and showed me what was in his hands. A box. A tiny box. When he opened it, it was beautiful. The diamond, the design, the shine. It was beautiful. I gasped and put my hands on my face. I couldn't believe it. He was actually proposing.

"Lucy Heartfilia, this is what'll seal my promise. So will you please do me the honor of spending the rest of your life with me?

"...Yes..."

He took out the ring and put it on my finger, then got up and hugged me. I was so shocked I was slightly laughing and tearing up. After Tears.  We hugged each other and were happy.

He kissed me and told me he had to go pack and that I should do the same, because I was gonna go with him.