Depression Override

Lose it

From that day, I told myself I would live to the fullest no matter what. I looked back at what I was planning to do and thought, how could I be so stupid. I almost killed myself. I had lost control and hurt someone important to me. But now, I'm going to live no matter what.

The next day, which the was the day we had gotten off, I woke up by myself. I wondered where my hero was and why wasn't he next me. I got up and walked downstairs to a surprise. As I entered the kitchen, there was Natsu making breakfast. Not just for me, but for everyone in the house. Even my father. I ran to his arms and hugged him. "Thank you" I said gratefully.

"Anything to make my girlfriend happy."

"Girlfriend?" I asked leaning back.

"Why not?" he said with a smirk.

All I did was smile and keep on hugging him. I set the table up and called everyone out for breakfast. After I had called everyone, only my father remained. I breathed deeply, then knocked on the door. I heard a quiet "come in". I opened the door slowly and peeked my head in to see my father sitting down sadly on the bed. I shut the door and walked slowly towards him. I felt his sad aura surrounding the room. A sat next to him on the bed, and hugged him.

"I'm sorry."

"It's okay."

"I'm sorry, for never being there for you, for never asking how you where or how you were feeling, for making you think that never cared, because I do, I just don't know how to share it. When I see you with Natsu, I can see he cares for you and I'm pretty sure you can see that too, and I just wish I could show you how much I love you like he does."

"Wait. Love?"

"Yeah, yesterday, when you went off to run, he came looking for you. He told me he loved you but that he didn't know how to tell you. I had to tell him you weren't home. So he left and all I could do was ponder about what he had said. I know that I have been a horrible father, but to me, you're still my baby and I don't want you to leave me. But I know you are a woman and will soon be leaving this house to create a life of your own. I'm sure your mother would be very proud of you."

We were both crying and hugging. I loved him and as much as I tried to hate him, I just couldn't. He was my father after all.

"It's okay, dad."

After a while we went downstairs to join with everyone else. We had a wonderful time and everyone was happy once again. We still had to attend to Aquarius' funeral though and I was sure that was bound to bring us down again. But I knew we would all get back up again. All we needed, was Time.

After breakfast, I asked Natsu if he could be my date to the funeral and he happily agreed. I was sure that with him there, I would feel much better. Its his super power. Making me feel better. We cleaned the kitchen and afterwards went to sit down in the living room.

"What do you wanna do today, Luce?"

"I don't know. How about a movie?"

"Okay."

We changed and headed for the movies. There were many options but, we went with MY choice. A movie called: Miracles From Heaven. I was sure I had cried about more than ten times, but Natsu was there to comfort me in each one of times. By when the movie was over, my eyes were red and looked tiny, but Natsu filled me with compliment about how I was still beautiful. only that I looked like a bunny, but was still beautiful. We went shopping after that, and he bought me so many things, that I could barely carry all of the bags full of clothes and shoes. But, I had a very strong person who had no problem carrying them for me, even though they were girl clothes. He carried them without carrying. I like that because I didn't want a guy who would say "Ohh no because then people and are going to think wrong". Like, who cares what others think?! We went home after a couple hours. We were pretty tired and were glad that tomorrow was Saturday. We began to get ready for dinner and talked as we did. Natsu was chopping potatos and I was setting the table. As I was putting down the plates, I felt his hand on my waist. I could feel him breathing on my neck. He kissed my nape and whispered my name. We walked to my room and things got out of control. We got on the bed and things just happened. His body on top of mine. I wasn't going to stop him even though I knew I should have. But I didn't want to. So I just let it happen.

Sometimes, we gotta Lose It.