A Fangirl's Dream

17- dolorous

"Where do you think you are going? Again, Maerin?" I turned to her and gave her a grin. "Why do you keep on asking that? Like seriously Soojun? I ain't went here to work." Her face immediatley gone red. This is why I love to tease her. Pumasok lang ako para makipagkwentuhan sa mga kaibigan ko. Woozi kept on asking me na ikwento sa kanila ang mga pangyayari kahit na alam ko namang napanood na nila iyon all over the news. At pinapunta rin ako ni Mommy para pagsabihan tungkol sa scandal. Akala ko hindi niya malalaman pero isinumbong ako ni Taery. King di ko lang mahal 'yong taong 'yun baka nasapak ko na. "Nabalitaan mo naman na siguro ang ginawa ko diba? Baka gusto mo ring gawin ko 'yun sa sasakyan mo?" Hamon ko rito. She turned her heels away from me and stomped her feet back to her office. "That girl, aish." I shook my head and carried all the gifts I'm going to give to Clay. Bumili talaga ako ng regalo para sa kanya dahil tinigil na ni Sehun oppa ang pagbili ng mga laruan instead mga coloring book and other educational tools ang ipinalit niya sa mga ito. But still, I believe na kailangan parin ng isang 5 year old boy ang laruan for him to exercise his mind in a larger and bigger parameter. Hindi iyong puro pag-aaral lang ang aatupagin niya. He'll probably hate school in the future kung puro iyon na lang ang gagawin niya.

Hindi kalayuan ang eskwelahan ni Clay kaya wala pang sampung minuto ay nakarating na ako ruon. I wore my spectacles and face mask. I'm not acting like a celebrity. Ayoko lang na pati si Clay ay madamay kung may makakakilala sa akin. Dumiretsyo ako sa classroom ni Clay and I saw him fixing his bag. Tamang-tama lang pala ang oras na pagdating ko. Pagkatapos nilang magdasal ay humilera na ang mga sundo ng bata para sila ay salubungin sa pintuan. Gulat na gulat si Clay nang makita ako. He sprinted towards me and hugged me. "Noona!" He then kissed my cheeks. I held his hand and guided him papunta ng sasakyan ko. "Where's daddy Sehun, noona?" Tanong nito. "He got some appointment kaya ako muna ang kasama mo sa bahay niyo. Okay lang ba sayo?" He looked up at me and nodded while smiling. "How's your class?" I asked while putting the seatbelt on him. "Ayos lang po." He answered. "I got stars noona!" He added saka ipinakita ang kamay niya na may tatlong stars. I felt really proud kaya niyakap ko ito. When I was a child wala akong naaalalang nakakuha ako ng stars o anuman, pati na rin ang pagsundo o paghatid manlang sa akin ng mga magulang ko ay wala rin. I have no memories of those happenings. Alam ko namang busy sila sa businesses nila kaya I didn't mind it. Pero I was never been genuinely happy kaya ako nagrebelde. I ran away from home pero nahanap din ako. Damn those connections ang trackig devices. Ayoko namang mangyari iyon kay Clay dahil busy ang kanyang tatay at wala naman itong nanay na nag-aalaga sa kanya.

I gave him the toys I bought earlier at tuwang-tuwa ito habang nilalaro ang mga ito habang ako naman ay nagmamaneho. "So Clay, tell me about you and your dad." I said while focusong on the road. "Daddy? Palagi niya po akong pinagsasabihan kapag hindi ako nag-aaral." Inosente nitong sabi. I wanted to ask him kung may nalalaman ito sa kanyang nanay but he is too young for sensitive topics like that. "May pumupunta bang ibang babae sa inyo maliban sa akin?" I laughed at my own question. "Meron po. Sila Taery Noona po." Tumango-tango ako. "And Noona Irene too! She always come to our house when daddy's not home. She always cooks for me." Hindi na ako nagulat sa sagot niya instead parang mas kinutaban ako na siya nga ang totoong ina ni Clay. "Anyways, do you have any crush on your new girl classmates?" I tried to changed the topic and it worked. He nodded, smilling brightly. "Then you're not gonna marry me anymore" I acted lime I'm deeply hurt. "Daddy said I can't marry you." He pouted. "Bakit daw?" Tanong ko. "Kasi sabi niya I can't marry my future mother. Gross po daw 'yun." Hindi ko mapigilang ngumiti sa sinabi ni Clay. How can he say those things to his son? Sehun pabo, really. But I don't mind having a step son though. I'll treat this kiddo as my own child. But what the heck am I saying?

I parked my car outside their house. Clay seems to give all his attention on the toys dahil hanggang makapasok kami sa bahay nila ay hindi maalis ang tingin niya sa mga ito. I decided to check his notebooks first kung may homework ito and fortunately wala. I bet puro introduction lang ang ginawa ng mga ito kanina since first day of class palang nila ngayon. "Maglaro ka muna ha? I'll just make you a snack and after that papaliguan kita, alright?" He nodded and continued playing while watching his favorite show, The Adventure Time.

"Manang, ako na lang po dito. Pakibantayan na lang si Clay." Sabi ko sa tagapamahala ng bahay na ito tuwing wala ang mag-ama. "Sige po Ma'am." She bowed at me and I did the same. Naghalungkat ako ng pwedeng gawing healthy snack para sa aming tatlo dito sa bahay. I opened the fridge at may mga nakita akong ilang prutas and I chose banana and mango. I'll be making a fruit shake. While looking for the blender, I heard someone opened the front door but I didn't mind dahil baka si Manang lang iyon at lumabas. "Ma'am! Si Ma'am Irene po nandito, kinukuha si Clay!" Hindi makapakaling sabi ni Manang, mautal-utal din ito. "Tatawagan ko na po si Sir." Tumakbo agad ako papunta nang sala at duon nga nakita si Irene unnie na pilit hinihila si Clay palabas ng pintuan. "Noona!" Clay called for me when he saw me. He look so scared while holding really tight the toy I just gave him. Lumapit ako sa kanila at kinuha si Clay sa kanya at tinago ang bata sa likuran ko like I'm protecting him from her. "What are you doing unnie?" I calmly asked her. "Kinukuha ang dapat sa akin." Madiin nitong sabi like in an obvious tone. Kumunot ang noo ko sa sinabi niya. What does she think of Clay? Gamit? "What do you mean?" She arched her eyebrow as if I'm asking such nonsense things. I was so shocked at her expression. Irene is not like this. She's not what I see right now. Ibang-iba ito sa Irene na napapanood ko lang noon.

"Clay is my son, can't you understand that?" That's it. She held her side bag at pilit nanamang inaabot ang kamay ni Clay. I pushed her away but she maintained her balance. Niyakap ko si Clay na halatang gulong-gulo na sa mga pangyayari. "Will you please stop getting on my way? Bakit, sino ka ba?" That hit me. Sino nga naman ako sa kanilang mag-ina? I'm no one but a mere stranger. "I promised his Dad that I'll take care of Clay while he's away. Ginagawa ko lang ang dapat kong gawin." I answered, looking at her eyes. She looks so troubled and tired. She just snobbed me. "Clay, let's go." I looked at Clay. Nakatingin lang ito kay Irene unnie and then at me as if he's asking for permission kung sasama ba ito kay Irene. I held him back again and said, "You can talk with Sehun oppa when he got home. Please not now Irene unnie." Pakiusap ko rito. She let out a deep sigh and left us without a word.

Lumingon ako kay Clay at lumuhod para pumantay sa kanya. "Don't mind what just happened. Continue playing, alright?" I smiled at him, almost reassuring. He just nodded and get back to what he was doing earlier. I locked all the doors before going back in the kitchen. Too many questions popped in my mind. What if she's the real mother of Clay? What will happen to the family I've been dreaming to have? What if Sehun oppa and Irene unnie get back together? How about me?

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"He's already asleep." Sehun oppa looked at me with his sad eyes. Ikiniwento ko na sa kanya kung anong nangyari kanina. Nalaman ko na ring si Irene nga ang totoong nanay ni Clay. I was really shocked kahit na alam kong malaki ang posibilidad. "He got tired waiting for you though," He smiled a bit. "What's your plan?" I asked him. He shook his head, saying like he doesn't know or won't do anything. "She really wants her son back." I told him. He looked at me and held my hand. "I'll talk to her." I nodded. "You really need to talk with her." I commented. I rested my head on his shoulder and I heard him giggled. "I love you." He whispered on my ears. His breath touches my cheeks that made me blush. I stood in front of him. "Uuwi na ako oppa." Tumayo rin ito at hinawakan ang kamay ko. "Hatid na kita." I shook my head and said, "I brought my car with me remember?" I told him. "Gabi na, you can stay here with us." Again, I shook my head as a response. "Hindi na, kaya kong umuwi." He sighed as if he is surrendering. "You sure you'll be alright?" I nodded and kissed his cheeks.

I grabbed my keys on my bag and started the engine. "Drive safely Mae." He reminded me. "I will." I answered and drove straight at home. Pagkarating ko ruon ay may isang pamilyar na sasakyan ang nakaparada sa harap ng bahay ko. "Bakit andito si Taehyung?" I asked myself as I parked my car at the garage. "Taehyung oppa!" I shouted as I hastily run towards the front door. Pero imbes na si Taehyung ang inaasahan kong naghihintay sa akin ay nagkamali ako. "What are you doing here Jimin?"

What is he doing here? This late? And drunk?

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