I'm just a little girl
Grew up too damn fast in this world
My scars are the symbols of pain
Forced to play that same old painful game
The voices in my head, They're calling out to me
Dragging me down to this painful eternity
I'm trying to survive but I'm tired of the war
I try and persevere, but I can't do this anymore
Give me a reason to stay
Just don't say you need me
Cause there's no me to need
What you think you need doesn't exist to begin with
What you're looking at is just a mirror of what I used to be
That's what you see
But behind that reflective glass is just a shell of an empty body
A heart shattered on the ground
With dark shadows all around
You missed the damn train
You missed the days before I was deemed clinically insane
That's my name
Not really but it feels like it
All the medication, gettin hypnotized by it
All my fucking emotions, gonna start a riot
But these are the rules set out for me, gotta live by it
Can't break the habit
Poppin pills to numb the pain
Feel it resurfacing, start again
As I said before, pain is the game
Fight it all you want but in the end you will surrender
In the end, that little girl?
It will end her
And yet ten years later I'm still here
All the pain inside, wish it could just disappear
I take it one day at a time till it adds up to a year
maybe that's how I made it
Maybe that's why I'm still here
But I've been trying to tell you
Waiting out an endless storm is not an easy thing to do
As much as you need me to live
I need you to pull me through
On my own it's an impossible thing to do
There is no end to this life
The reality of this allows me to effortlessly wield my knife
Compared to the universe we are small in size
That's why it makes no difference if we die or not
This knowledge hurts a lot
Like a bullet, feels like I got shot
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This poem is about my extreme depression that I was diagnosed with. This poem reveals the inner workings of my mind and probably of a few others too. It's not easy living with depression but it's not impossible.
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