Spot light (Niall Hoarn fanfic)

Chapter 13

A/N Sorry if this chapter sucked or was short trust me there will be drama in Ireland.

After we eat for about an hour along with many laughs and kisses I’m now laid across Niall’s chest staring up at the clouds while he plays with my hair. I’ve never really felt as relaxed as I do now. “I love you Shara, you know that don’t you.”

I smile and my heart races Niall has only said he loved me once and that was when we had sex for the first time and I think it just slipped out but now I can hear him clearly and smile and tilt my head up so I can look into his eyes. “I know.” I say and lean down to kiss his lips.

He smiles and we lay like this for the rest of the time just talking, it feels nice to just relax and talk to Niall not caring that what I’m about to do is probably going to crush my mom.

After the sunset and Niall and I share yet another kiss he walks me back to the car hand and hand and he drives me back home, I take my time kissing him in the car and when I get out I smile and run up to the door opening it.

I almost think my mother is waiting for me by the door but the living room is silent and empty. I feel a pain in my heart and I suddenly want to cry what if what I said finally hurt my mother, she seemed so unbreakable after what happen she just didn’t have feelings.

My hand finds the knob on a door and I quickly open it shutting the door behind me as I lean against the door, memories flash through my mind and even if it’s only five and sunlight stream through the window all I see is rain, dark and cloudy skies and the yells can be heard through the door.

“Your good for nothing and so is your daughter she’s not my child anymore I only wanted the money.”

“How could you say that?” My mother says back her voice cracking and I feel the tears run down my face, something glass crushes to the ground and I jump.

Footsteps can be heard coming towards the room, my brother’s room but he’s out there yelling along with my father, or what even is he. The tears only come faster as I gather myself and stand up opening the door, the light from the hallway shines through and I step out and turn to see what’s going on even if I know what is happening.

“Oh look she’s come out.” My father says walking towards me.

“John don’t you dare do anything to her.” My mother says running towards me but all I feel is hate and pain towards this men, I try to hit him as he comes closer but he's quick movement stop same and he slaps me across the face and all I hear is my mother gasp before everything goes black.

I wake up leaning against the door, I’m eighteen again and not ten although I suddenly feel smaller than ever. My breath is fast and wet tears are soaking my face.

Just this afternoon I had such a great time with Niall and suddenly I’m remembering my past and why my mother is the way she is. Like my father said I didn’t belong here. I sit up trying my best not to cry as I think why my mother is so strict.

Because she doesn’t want to lose her only daughter like she lost her husband and sons. I remind myself and suddenly the pain in my heart is back, of course that’s why. That’s why she has said no to anything I wanted to do when I got fifteen; she was scared I would leave her and here I am going to Ireland not even caring if she says no.

I check the room for a clock but I realize its bare, the room is empty because my brother took everything with him to collage four years ago, I sigh and stand up as my hand touches the cold door knob I’m almost scared to open it like the things from my flash back might come back to life but I get over it and tear the door open.

The hallway light is still on and I become aware of my phone digging into my hand because of my tight grip, I check the time on that instead and close the door making my way up to my room.

Its only midnight, which is strange; how did I even fall asleep? I change out of my clothes and into sweatpants and a tank top and fall onto my bed with Diana licking my feet. I soon drift in and out of sleep.

When I wake up I do everything the same but this time I text Niall and learn were leaving tomorrow, he already got my passport how I don’t know but all I know is I need to talk to my mother.

I get out a bag and pack for two week, everything I need. I don’t really know the weather in Ireland so I just guess and pick whatever when I’m done I make a note to go and buy a dog cage because there is no way I’m leaving Diana here and she hardly makes any noise, I lean down and pet her head bring her in my arms.

It’s been a hard and stressful night but I know I have to explain things to my mother not that I understand her. I find my mother of course sitting on the couch reading; I take a deep breath and walk over to her sitting on the conch.

“Mom I have something to say.”

 My mother looks up from reading and pushes her glasses up her noise and mutes the TV, I take yet another deep breath. “You’re going to say you’re sorry for just walking out of my house.”

“Look I know why you don’t want me doing anything.” I say and realize I sound like I’m a princess stuck in the tower. “It’s because of my… father isn’t it? Because of how much you lost.” I say and get up walking over to my mom. “I’m going to Ireland for me. I’m not going to leave you.”

My mom starts to tear up and I back away like I’ve done something wrong but she grabs me and brings me into a hug and I relax. “Oh Shara I know that you won’t.” She says standing up so the hug isn’t so weird and I hug back tighter, it has been forever since I felt like my mother hasn’t always wanted the perfect daughter with the grades and everything else.

When we let go my mom smiles at me and I smile back. “When do you leave?” My mom says walking into the kitchen and starts making tea.

“Tomorrow,” I trial off scared of what she might say.

“Do you need help packing?” Is all she says and the timer beeps. I nod my head and turn towards the family picture on the wall.

“Mom,” I ask and she turns towards me. “Can I uh bring this?” I point to the picture and she nods, I try my best to reach it and my mother ends up getting it and wrapping it as we travel back through the hallway to pack the rest of my stuff up.

I tell my mom I need to run out and grab a dog cage and she lets me and I return right before dinner which we spend talking about many things before I go to bed extra early.

I wake up to sunlight flooding across my face and I realize somehow last night I fall asleep. I almost jump out of my bed when I realize today is the day I’ll finally get out of these state and see Ireland. Since I am Irish I’ve always wondered what it looked like and now I really get to see it.

I just take a shower and don’t even worry about make-up, when I’m done braiding my hair my mother comes into my room. “Shara I’ll drive you to the airport if you need to meet Niall.”

I’m taken aback by her offer and I nod and gather a few more things before texting Niall to meet me at the Starbucks near the airport. I grab Diana which I'm still trying to wonder why my mom hasn't asked and put her in the cage. As my mom drives us I can’t believe how much we talked and of course I still can’t believe I brought school work along with me but this book I’m reading is the best.

When we turn onto the airplane parking lot we get out and drag my suitcases through the lines, I’m not a huge fan of planes so this is a little scary and of course I see Niall standing and talking to Harry with two coffees in his hands.

As soon as I finish the checking in part I go met Niall grab my drink and my mother says hi, she’s just so different today. After an hour of talking they call our flight and I stare at my mother as she messes with her shirt button. “Mother,” I call out to her and I notice how Harry says his goodbyes and Niall backs away.

“Goodbye Shara.” My mom says hugging me and then waving at Niall. “Call me every day okay?” I nod and she turns and leaves just like that and Niall pushes me onto the plane.