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Regret

JIMINS POV:

The weather was insync with my feelings. Rain began to pour down harshly, following the similar rhythm of the tears sliding down my puffy cheeks.

I sniffled quietly.

I had no one to blame other than myself.

I felt dirty and began to scrub away at my skin to rid the dirty feeling.

"Get off me..."

I sobbed scratching harder at my skin, hoping to tear it off.

"Excuse me mister, but why are you crying?"

I looked up, a little girl with two small pony tails ok either side of her head was staring down at me holding a pink and white umbrella over my head.

I quickly wiped the tears away and faked a smile. "I'm ok now, thank you for your concern."

"You should get an umbrella otherwise you'll get cold! Here have mine."

I smiled genuinely at the little girls kindness.

"Thank you." She smiled contently and skipped off, leaving me alone with the umbrella in hand.

I slowly picked myself up and began to trudge home, my shoes filled with water, making my steps heavier.

I fumbled with my apartment keys when I reached the apartment. My hands were slightly numb from the cold as I attempted to find the correct key.

I finally got in and pulled of my shoes, leaving me in my saturated socks. I walked into the bathroom and quickly turned on the water, the little girl was right, I didn't want to get sick.

I took of my wet clothes throwing them in the bathroom sink.

I stepped into the warm water, feeling it run down my back and into the drain.

Jungkooks POV:

I drove off and kept driving unsure of where I was going, all I was aware of, is I wanted to get far away from here.

I drove all the way to Busan and stayed in a small motel whilst there.

I wanted to escape Jimin.

I still hasn't felt any emotion towards what he had done.

That was until I felt something wet slide down my cheek.

I felt cheated on.

(Shannon interrupts this sad ass moment to bring you her fustration. OK SO IM LISTENING TO MUSIC AND THE FUCKING EAR BUD WONT STAY IN MY FLIPPING EAR. LIKE YOU HAVE ONE JOB BUDDY.)

I felt betrayed.

Jimin was I not good enough?

I wanted to scream so badly, as I held in my muffled sobs burying my head deeper into the pillow.

(I'm listening to swish and feel turnt as fuck.)

I didn't want to see him, or hear about Jimin. If I did, I'd break.

I also had much hatred for Taehyung. I wanted to run up to him and punch him until he bled.

(*sigh* I feel like shit right now.)

JIMINS POV:

I stepped out of the shower pulling a towel around my wet body. The cool air nipping at my skin.

I dried off and changed into pyjamas.

I sat on my bed and bit my lip trying not to cry.

What have I done...?

This is shit.

And I know it.

But it's an update.

Please just fucking take it.

Hi guys.

Thank for you 10K.

And ah...

Well I'm sorta not in a good mood cause like I feel like I'm being totally ignored right now. SO ITS FINE.

I'm just kinda stuck in the house and I really just want to get out of the house. Should I leave? I live near a train station and I know my way around. I really want to go to the city right now.

Anyway, I'm going to do something about it.

So bye guys.