For the past days, and the days to come

I am who I am

I don't care what you say. You may say I'm ugly, you may say I'm fat, you may say call me racist names, you can call me a bitch, a slut, a whore, a skank, I don't care. I know myself, and I know I'm pretty. I don't need anybody telling me so. I don't care if you're complimenting me or talking trash about me, at the end of every story, it's the girl's choice and her thoughts that will end her story happy or miserably. You said Geleyia was prettier than me. You said she was everything you can ask for. You said she was kind, caring, loving, and beautiful. Beautiful. I asked you, "don't you think I'm beautiful?" You sighed and took a step back. At that moment, I knew that you weren't the one for me. Because I know Mr.Perfect won't hurt me like this, what I'm feeling right now. This throbbing pain. Like my heart is in pain. I learned in class that a heart has four chambers, valves, contains membranes, it's there to keep you alive (I don't really know a lot about hearts). But to me, a heart is another soul, a chamber for your emotions and memories. Once you have the memories, it'll be there forever. This heart isn't made to me broken again and again. I keep giving you chances and yet every time you fuck it up. I'm sorry, but this time, I'm going solo. I know who I am. I am beautiful. I am caring. I am kind. I am loving, I am brave. I am confident. I am fierce. I am intelligent. I am strong. I am who I am. I am Kaia Laken Odo.

I finally said my real name, Yes my name is Kaia Laken but people just call me Kayl (don't ask me why)This one is for all the girls with low-self esteem. I'm suffering from low-esteem all the time. I keep hearing everyone around me saying I'm not pretty enough or skinny enough or fair enough. I don't exist in this world to please you. I'm here to make a difference in the world. If you don't like the way I am, then get lost, because there is no way I'm changing for you, or anybody. Be you. Just because a boy said you aren't pretty doesn't mean you aren't. You are beautiful in a different way. I loved him so much. I mean, he said he liked me and... he left, in a matter of days he went to another girl, Geleyia. I will never forgive myself for falling for someone like you. Someone who's just desperate for someone to date. I will never forgive myself, or you for letting me think you liked me. You don't know how hurt I was.