Masochist & Sadist

Chapter 50

Chapter 50: Hypothetical

As what Anna Foster said in the movie Chasing Liberty: the things that you are most scared of are usually the most worthwhile. To be honest, I'm scared to spill the beans to my brother. However, I know it will make Clyde happy if we become 'legal'. 

The stars are shinning brightly. They're just so lovely up there. I took a deep breath, thought of what I had to do, and picked up my phone and called the number of the person I have been thinking about. It was still ringing when I saw my brother in the garden playing his guitar. I sighed and looked up in the sky. You think I should do it now? I asked silently to the biggest star in the sky. Para namang sumagot iyon ng kumislap siya. Right. I should.

After seven rings, he answered it. (Boo?) I can hear music playing in his background.

"Hey, Nakaistorbo ba ko?"

(Nope. I was just listening to some feel good music.) 

Dumungaw ulit ako sa baba at pinagmasdan si kuya. He probably felt it because he suddenly looked up, and waved at me. I smiled a bit and waved back, feeling somehow guilty for keeping a secret from him. 

(What are you doing?)

"Thinking."

(About?)

"I'm gonna tell kuya."

Biglang naging tahimik. (Are you ready?) He asked after a while.

"I guess, I will be?"

(Boo, I don't want you to do something you're not ready for out of pressure. Or for my sake.)

Napangiti ako. For that, I appreciated him even more. "Thanks but I do think it's time."

(All right. Wait for me I'll be there in a few minutes.)

"Wait, boo. You don't have to. Ako na lang muna ang kakausap sa kanya."

I heard him sigh. (If that's what you want. But if you ever change your mind, call me.)

"I will."

(So this is it, boo?) Even if I don't see him, I can feel that he is smiling.

"Yes, this is it."

(We'll be legal. Xander won't get to tease me about it anymore.) He said with a soft laugh.

"Yeah, he won't. I promise I'm gonna tell him now."

(Ok. I'll see you tomorrow and face Kyle.)

After I talked to him, I went downstairs, feeling determined to tell kuya what I have to. I am damned nervous, though. My heart is pounding like crazy. No matter how nervous I am, backing out is not an option. I have procrastinated long enough. It's time I fess up. I sat down across kuya who's still playing his favourite guitar. Tell him, Selene! I opened my mouth and tried to force the words out but they wouldn't come out. Wringing my fingers, I stole a glance at him.

"Stop."

"Huh?" I asked a little bit surprised.

Kuya looked at me. "Stop staring. It's distracting. Not to mention, weird." Then he went back to playing. "What is it, Selene?"

"Huh? Nothing." I should really tell him now. "Kuya?"

"What?"

I licked my lips. "Kasi I have this friend who's in a difficult situation." He just made a sound. "Her big brother is overprotective. It's crazy how much he guards his sister. He doesn't even let her date."