Masochist & Sadist

Chapter 23

Chapter 23: Formula

Have you ever gotten to a point where you just want to stop feeling? To be numb even for just a day or so? To cease thinking about that one guy who gives color to your once-dull life?

Have you ever reached that period of time where you so badly want to wish for everything to change?

I have...

There are times when I can't help but wish that he'd go back to ignoring him. Wish he'd stop being sweet. Wish he'd stop making me feel special. Wish he'd stop showing how much he cares. Wish he'd stop being so wonderfully charming. Wish he'd stop being so damned nice to me...

Because maybe by then, I'd learn how to stop loving him. How to cease thinking about him. How to prevent myself from playing this painfully sweet scenario in my head...he is the prince and I am his princess and his world revolves around me. And maybe, just maybe I'd stop wondering about our what ifs and could've beens.

But there are also some instances when I wish for those things to not ever happen...like right now.

A smile automatically appears on my face as I see him waiting for me outside my classroom which he has been doing since the semester has started.

"Hi kuya!"

He flashed his perfect smile which made every girl in the hallway , including me, sigh dreamily.

"Hey." He took my books from me then reached for my hand. "How was your exam?"

My face fell a little. "Not so good. Math has never been my thing."

He pressed my hand a bit. "Cake?"

And just like that, he has made my day better.

He patiently helped me out with math. I gotta say that he's real good. What my prof has failed to make me understand, he was able to do so without difficulty. He made every formula seem so easy. I even found myself enjoying every bit of our time studying about math. I'm not sure if it's because he's real good at what he does or simply because of him.

"Wow. I can't believe this! I was able to solve it so fast!" I said, gushing.

He chuckled. "Ikaw lang eh. Wala kang tiwala sa sarili mo."

"No, It's because of you, kuya. You're such a good tutor. Better than my math prof, if I may say so. Thank you, kuya Clyde."

He just smiled a bit and gently pinched my cheek. "You're welcome."

"Are you guys, done studying?" Seth asked.

"Yeah."

"Finally!" Xander muttered. "Let's go grab some food! I'm starving."

"Your treat, Selene."

Bahagya akong napalabi sa sinabi ni kuya. "Why me?"

He smirked. "Because you're the reason why we are so hungry."

"Tama!" Xander said in sing-song voice. "Tagal mo kayang nagpa-tutor kay pretty boy."

"Oo na."

Nakangising binitbit ni Clyde ang gamit ko at iginiya na ko palabas ng Haven. Kasunod namin sina Seth, Xander, at kuya. Isang mamahaling restaurant pa talaga ang pinili ng mga mokong! Napalabi na lang ako sa kanila habang nang-iinis silang ngumisi habang umo-order ng puro mamahalin.