BTS JIMIN Oneshots 《COMPILATION》✓

Anxiously in Love

Flashback

He wave to me again as soon as he saw me. I wave back and walk faster to him.

“You came.” he said with his eye smile and I never forget how much I love it.

“Of course I'm coming oppa, today is your birthday celebration.” I reach out my hand to greet him and he happily accept it. “Thank you for being born Jimin oppa. I'm so glad that you were here and Thank you for choosed me.” I said shly as I know not all fan got invited to the special fanmeeting to celebrate his birthday party like this.

“I'd love to invite all ARMY as well, but we can't make it. Hehehe. So, where is my present?” He asked with his childish tone left me giggles.

“I've put it together with other fan's presents. You may find mine later, if you could recognize mine.” I tease him and he laugh again.

I keep staring at his face how his eyesmile come out, how his thoughts written all over his face.

“Why you need to do that? You're not just a fan, you're our friend anyway.” His voice wake me up and oh yeah, a friend. “Listen to me, after this fanmeet over, come and meet me in here, I have something to tell you.” He said and I blinking my eyes few times didn't believe what he said. I never knew that it was the start of something new.

“Happy Birthday too!” He suddenly say once we meet back after the fanmeet end. I got amaze at his attitude. He was looking at me and holding both of my hand.

“H... how come you know my birthday?” I asked disbelief. My ultimate crush who share the same birthday with me, notice about my birthday!

He chuckles and continue, “Silly. Of course I know all about you.” It left me mouthanged and he continue again, “I know it's hard to believe, but I fall for you at the first sight and I really want you to be my girlfriend, you know... err..” He sounds hesitate and I can tell that he was so nervous.

“Yes! Anything for you I'd love to....” I blabbering, not care about anything else. I have him and that's all I really need to know.

Flashback ended~

But realities doesn't as good as fairytale isn't? Our space grow farther, he often stay overseas for his concert and even if he stay in Korea he will just practice and this and that. Me, personally I can't attend all BTS's activities anymore as my work getting more tight.

It has been a year and texts are the only things left, it was only like, good morning, good night, happy lunch, sweet dream, take care. It was bitter. Phonecalls are so rare, no surprise meeting and this is happening only after a month after I start dating him.

There is a time when we decided to go out and dating, but we feel so awkward and bitter. I tried to assured my self that he's an idol and I should understand him and giving him space. I know and I did, it's just it's not gonna really work anymore and I think Jimin figure it out too, because once I called him for the very first time in this week, I told him we need to talk about things. He then paused for awhile before agree.

Once I sip a bit of my coffee latte, I saw a figure walking down closer to me and sit down. He still looks good as ever. His eyes was still sparkling when he look at me. He still so nice to me, nothing wrong but we need to change something.

He order something once he sat down. I stared at his movement and I never regret how much I loved him, and it will never change,

“Oppa....” I called him once he done.

He look at me and I can see the sparkling has gone replace with anxieties.

“Do you know how much I miss you? I miss the old of us. I know what are you trying to said. I feel it too. I just don't know how to make it up.” He said directly as he can read my mind while holding my hand.

I smile up at him and hold his hand back. “Nothing could stop us from being in love. My love for you would never change. It's just I think we need a space for awhile. We need to deal with our self about how we are going to fight?” I said and he look at me hesitantly and confusedly. “I mean, we need to make strategies to put down everything that hurt us, hurt our love.” I assuring him and I can feel his grip was tighten.

“Don't tell me you're leaving me.”

His face is getting sad and I hate to seeing him like this, but I have to, to save us.

“I'm letting you go, for awhile Jimin oppa. As I said before. Maybe we just need a blink of a break.” I mumbled and he close his eyes frustratingly.

“I'm sorry.” it's all he said, and I was wondering. “I'm sorry I'm not good enough for you. I know that I'm the worst boyfriend ever right? You must be feeling lonely this passed year. I'm so sorry.” I can't what I just heard and still proceed what he just saying.

We stay silent for awhile until he let out a big sigh with his head down slowly talking to me. “Fine, I let you go now but.... don't wandering around too long okay? You still need to come back home.” I smile at his last sentence. The feeling when he indirectly pointing that he is my home was so warm.

I lock my hands with his again which make him face me. “Let's face this together. I won't leave that long, you know how much I love you and nothing can compare to it.” I smile and he smile back before let out a sigh,

“I really don't know if this was a good idea or not. I feel anxious.” I smile and move closer to him,

“Me too, but I'm still anxiously in love with you.”