The Killers - Part 2

chapter 8

i was in the room getting... whats her name... Kylie... or something along those lines, an unusual name for someone that is about all i can remember. Hmm, casual wear, no way in hell was i giving her any of my good clothes. I picked out some jeans and a couple of shirts, not knowing what ones she would like, so i just grabbed a whole bunch that i knew i never wore and never will. I looked at myself in the mirror, observing myself from every direction; i wasn’t going to stay like this for much longer. Three months, i had a slight bump, not much but it was noticeable, no wonder Jo thought something was up. A sudden wave of dizziness came over me, again... i dropped the clothes and bolted for the bathroom, i sure hope this stops soon, i threw up, the smell infusing my nasal passages, its horrible, and it was making my headache worse. I sat there, the side of my head leaning against my crossed arms, not knowing if i had finished chucking my guts up or not. I heard a soft patter of knocking against the door, wonder who that would be. “go away Freddie” I moaned before another wave of sickness came, im hoping for a miracle that this ends in the next couple of days, it was bad enough i was constantly getting headaches, though today’s is worse by far, i need to catch up on some sleep.

The door opened, i tried extending my foot to keep the door shut but my reflexes were too slow, the door was already opened and Freddie had already walked through. He knows i hate it when he does this, he doesn’t need to see me like this, i get that he is excited, i was too, but this, this isn’t something to watch, its disgusting. He took a seat on the edge of the tub, waiting for me, i flushed the toilet and rinsed my mouth, feeling allot better than what i had, and even the headache had slightly disappeared. “Not a chance, not ever” He said before kissing me, he hands laid on my stomach, he was like a magnet, always there, never leaving me alone, I’m not complaining though, i absolutely love being with him, and wouldn’t waste a minute. We went back to the room and picked up the clothes where i had left them. I passed them to fred to give to Kyrie, thats it, not kylie, what the hell was my brain doing today, it was like mush, not thinking straight or screwed on. “here you go dear” Freddie said handing them over to her, she was talking to Natalie, someone john met, i don’t remember alot at the moment, too much has been going on the past week, all i want to do is sit down and relax.

I went over and sat with Josie, she was reading some magazine, so i picked up one off the pile she was reading off, it was filled with assorted dresses of various colours and designs. “Jo, what are you looking for?” I asked her, she looked up over her magazine, as if she were immensely reading it with great concentration and i had just came along and ruined it. She realised i was talking to her and change her composure in an instant. “oh nothing much, looking for a wedding dress, and another dress” She said, flicking through the magazine before giving up with it and throwing it away, only to then pick up another magazine and sieve her way through it. I went back to reading the one i had picked up. “this one’s a pretty dress” I said, it wasn’t completely white, white alone just looked weird, its body was black but with black at the front and crossing over as it made its way behind the dress, it looked stunning, she snatched the magazine from me, inspecting it closely. She began to squeal, i assume that means she likes it, but it was really high and somewhat annoying, sensitive ears does that, i cant even stand Rogers low falsetto voice let alone when he goes full ball into his high falsetto. “Brian.... Bri Bri... guess what guess what” She said getting out of her seat hopping up and down like a child who had just got the present that have wanted for the past year.

He asked, looking away from the tv. Freddie was instantly at her side, dragging her away from Brian so he couldn’t see the magazine, hurriedly whispering into her ear. “Never, never do you tell the groom let alone show him the dress you want to wear... ruins the element of surprise” Freddie said, then taking the magazine from josie to examine the dress himself. “nevermind” She said, disappointed that she couldn’t tell Brian. Roger and john went to the couch with Brian trying to distract him from all that fuss. The other two, Natalie and Kyrie were just standing there awkwardly talking to each other staring around the room. “my gosh darling, that is such a beautiful dress” Freddie said, handing her back the magazine, she doggie paged the corner and closed it, shunning it from anyone else from seeing her masterful plan of what she wants her dress to be. “what was the other dress for” I asked her, she looked up at me, completely confused about what i was saying, why is she confused, she isn’t the one with her brain in mush mode. “ahh... never mind ive already got the maid of honour dress organised, its just going to be the negative version of mine, quiet ingenious i think” She said, highly proud of her idea, very smart idea indeed, i would never of thought to do something like that. Themes are a good thing to go by, though i would never be able to organise such a thing. “and whos the maid of honour to be? Rogers best man.” Brian said looking behind him. Rogers head snapped to stare at Brian, his jaw dropped, not knowing completely of what Brian had just said, john turned around staring in the direction of Josie, she had caught everyone’s attention. “Tamarah” She said, not thinking twice about what she had just said, me, in a dress like that, no, that wouldn’t be my style, and ill look huge in a dress like that.

 “me, wha? When are you planning your wedding to be?” I asked her, that is the thing, i still got what another six months and i doubt she or Brian will wait that long, id ruin everything they have planned for a perfect day. “three possibly four months” The both said in unison. Yep, definitely a no, its not that i don’t want to or anything im delighted that she has chosen me, but i don’t want to ruin their special day. “im delighted, i truly am, but i cant.” I admitted aloud, all their heads now snapped in my direction, Josies’ jaw dropping to the floor, stunned by my decline, i knew everyone was going to act like this, stupid self-conscious me. “WHAT!!! WHY?” Freddie and jo exclaimed together, Fred looking at me confused, of all people i thought he would understand, all i could do was involuntarily roll my eyes accidently. “im very self conscious of how i appear; add another three months onto now and ill be 6 months pregnant, huge as ever and ill ruin everything.” I told her, Freddie went bright red about what i had just said, he looked really angry about what i had just said, it was really creepy to see him like this, Jo was staring at me, not knowing how to react.

 “you won’t ruin anything, if anything, you will make it better.” She said, trying to change the mood. I couldn’t decline then, i nodded my head and agreed to her decisions, she squealed again in excitement, bouncing up and down in her chair before running over to Brian. i quiet like the visualisation i had of the opposite of the dress she would be wearing. Fred laid a hand on my shoulder, he had calmed down, no longer red in the face, i think he thought it was just a casually change of mood. “anyway, the more of you the better, means the more of you i get to love” He whispered into my ear, grinning like there was no tomorrow, he was a cheeky man when he wanted to be, he instantly changed the atmosphere around us. He knew better than that not to talk like that in front of everyone, i playfully elbowed him in the stomach; he began to bellow with laughter. i smiled up at him and he smiled back before kissing the top of my head.