Hard To Love|Chris Brown Prequel [Completed]

Chapter 12:Peace Order

Jess

What was taking Chris so long to come down? Maybe he's at the bathroom or doing a phone call
I was getting hungry so I entered the kitchen,looking for something to eat

I heard footsteps and went back to the living room where Chris was looking for something.I leaned against the counter not looking what's behind me

"You good at this"I complimented and he turned to face me

"On what? This fatherhood shit,sooner or later I'm gonna change.I'm just doing this for Cass"he stated and I smiled

"You know,fatherhood ain't shit.Having a child actually does change you and your ways,it has a good impact on your life.I know because I've been through hell and seeing Cass everyday actually removed the painful lump.But hey,you don't care do you?."I sighed realising the fact that I opened up to him

An awkward silence filled the room,Chris sat down and I sat next to him.Just a little distance between us.He sighed and looked at me

"Look,I know now that Cass is my daughter and I'm trying my best to accept that I raped you.I've caused you pain,I just need you to understand that I was young,bad peers around me and irresponsible not that it's your fault but mine."He explained looking so dull and I kinda felt my heart melt at his apology but my question was,what made him believe me?

I sighed feeling the urge to cry "What made you believe me now?"I questioned and he huffed like he wanted to cry.Oh no,please don't

"I did a research on you"he said and I sat up straight looking at him shocked

"You did what!?"I said a little bit louder

"Hey,Cass is sleeping..look I had to make sure by myself.Would you like it if I had to bombard you with questions that you would end up saying some things you'll regret?"He questioned as I crossed my arms

"Oh please,I'm pretty damn sure I wouldn't regret a word"I huffed and he shook his head

"Jessica,I don't know why you're always so negative here.Can't you see a nigga tryin"

"Oh Chris,we both know that you're only doing this for Cass.Not for me because I'm the victim here"

"That's what I'm trying to do here! Connect and operate with both daughter and mother but you...you just so complicated" he screeched

I looked away,maybe he's right.I am complicated because of him

"Let's just let bygones be bygones.Be friends and parents at the same time,do you think I like this tension between us? No,I want us to get along in order for Cass to grow up with both parents.Please"He begged and grabbed his car keys standing up

I sighed "We can do that,you're right I am complicated.I get that and all,I don't want my child get the same thing that happened to me"I explained,he sat down putting his car keys back on the patio

"But,I just hope it won't affect your relationship.I don't need drama,have you told her yet"I questioned testing his honesty

"No,it's hard.I don't wanna hide her but for now it's very hard.There is paparazzi this side and on the other one is my girlfriend.She wants kids so bad and this is gonna hurt her dismally. She wanted me to have my first child with her but things turned out the other way around.I really don't know"he spoke with nothing but a worried face

"Did she tell you that we're working together? Chris she wants to be my friend already,get guts and tell her.If not,its gonna go really bad and I don't wanna be part of the problem." I complained and he sighed

"I know,I know.Jus give me to think,I'm not ready yet to spill the news.This is too much to handle,please understand" he pleaded looking me straight in my eyes

I sighed and shook my head "Ok fine,do what you want just make sure she doesn't hear it from someone else.For now I'll act as if I don't know that ya'll are dating.I hate lying and pretending so...I'm doing this for you"I said

He sighed a sigh of relief "Thank you so much,I never thought you can be soft sometimes"he said before kissing my cheek

"Boy,you don't know me..you don't want me changing ma mind are you?" I questioned chuckling

He laughed "Trust me,I don't" he replied.An awkward silence filled for a few seconds until I decided to speak

"Do you think we can stay happy friends and co-parents forever?"I asked concerned

"Truthfully speaking,we are gonna go through rough patches on the way,if we can stick together all the time,we are gonna be happy.That I bet" he replied and I nodded at his statement

"Aye,I bought you dinner.I'mma take it for ya" He got up heading to the island and took the McDonalds bag that I didn't even notice.Honestly speaking,I could actually get used to this

"Oh thanks,you didn't have too.I mean I could have cooked"I said taking out the chicken wrap up ready to destroy it.It's like he knew I like it.He sat next to me,just a little closer

"You know you can't tire yourself all the damn time,sometimes you need to rest.I mean you have a company and a daughter to take care of.That's why I bought you food,so you can free your mind"He explained and I smiled

"Aaw thanks,how did you know its my favourite?"

"Well Cass told me"He replied smiling

"If I can ask...why are you single? You're beautiful,independent,smart and got brains too" he complimented,I took a sip in my drink before answering his question.I was embarrassed for the fact that I haven't been seeing anyone since the rape,I just lost trust in men and I wasn't about to tell him that

I sighed "Not many guys wanna be with a woman who has a kid"I responded

"Don't say that,there are some men who are interested.How did your first relationship end? " he asked and I chuckled

"Oh my word,I can't believe I'm having this conversation with you...Do you think I had one? "I said sarcastically and he shrugged his shoulders

"I ion know...wait,you never had a serious relationship?"

"Nor a relationship"I said

"Was it because of me?"he asked changing his voice into a sad one and I sighed not making eye contact with him

"Look,lets just say I never trusted men.I don't wanna bring the topic back again,I don't wanna make you feel guilty.I want you to be comfortable as you can,as you said 'let bygones be bygones' and I wanna do that"I explained and he nodded at me surprised

"God I like this side of yours,wish it could stay like that.Thank you by the way,by operating with me.I really appreciate it "he thanked and I smiled

"Hey,don't you have a girlfriend waiting?"I playfully pushed his arm

"Damn I forgot! Thank you"he murmured before kissing my cheek

"Bye"he said opening the door

"Bye"I yelled back and sighed

"Yeah right"I said to myself

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