Hard To Love|Chris Brown Prequel [Completed]

:::7 Confessions

Jess's POV

(Phone call)

"Grandma,I don't know what to do or say.Im confused and....."I cried over the phone with the only person Im able to talk about everything,my grandma

"Baby,why did you even let him in your life when you know he raped you?"she asked,how can she ask that.I don't need lecture I need advice

"I thought I was gonna keep it proffessional mama but I guess things turned out the vertical way"I sighed

"What can you do now? He is the father and you gotta tell him what happened"she said..no I can't do that

"Grandma you know I can't do that! What if he doesn't believe me?"I argued

"Ofcourse he will,he found out about the DNA didn't he?"she questioned

"Yeah he did"

"Jessy what you gon do is,confess and let him decide what to do next.Show nothing but a remorsed face then if he doesn't believe you just quit working for him"she explained,I sighed grasping what she said

"I will try and do that grandma.Bye"

"Bye baby,you gon be strong"I sighed and dropped the phone call
(Phone call over)

I rubbed my cold arms next to the tree I was sitting next to.Jessica you can do this,I know I can.I walked back to the hospital ready to pay the surgery.I walked to the reception and the blonde lady was glued on her computer.

"Excuse me"I said in my raspy voice,she smiled

"Im here to pay for Cassandra Lorrin"I handed her my black card but she didn't take

"Its fine mam' Mr Brown already paid for it and you can go and see your daughter.She's gonna be fine trust me"She rubbed my hand smilin

Wait a minute,Chris paid but why? I don't need his money

"What do you mean he paid for the surgery?"I scrunched my eyebrows

"I don't know,I guess he's being nice"She responded and I nodded in adoscolence

"I guess so,can I see my daughter?"

"Yes,room 165B first floor"she directed,I thanked her and ran to the room ready to see my loving daughter

I entered the room and saw Chris,his presence didn't shook me at all.Im all about my daughter who's fighting for her life.Chris was sitting on the chair next to Cass's bed brushing Cass's hand

I ran up on the other side of the bed to my cute sleepy child and brushed her bandanged hair,kissed her forehead like I always do.Seeing my daughter lying there helpless got me emotional,I was in a verge of crying but I held myself.

"Where the hell where you?"Chris scolded

"Does it matter?"I amusingly questioned

"Why you trippin?"He crossed his eyebrows

"I ain't the one who's trippin,you are"I echoed,here we go again fighting over little stuff

"Hey,Im not the one who just found out he's a father and he doesn't know how"I kept quiet and looked on the side

"Who's trippin now? You explain why and how possible is Cass my-"

"You raped me!"I yelled in anger remembering all the time I suffered giving birth to Cass

Giving birth in the house alone,no one to take me to the hospital.Grandma was at church and even if she could,she was too old to carry me.Cass was breathing with pipes cause she was born premature,I had to loan money to pay for her to breath on her own.Trust me it was hard

"You were drunk,smelling weed and other types of drugs...then you told me you wanted me so bad and you threw me at the sofa,started raping me continuosly.After that,I didn't sleep obviously you were faded.I got pregnant after 2 weeks of the incident...It was so hard"Tears were pouring rapidly out of my eyes

"Wait..What? I...raped you? I could never rape someone"His eyes lowered beneath his eyelashes,his hands at the back of his head.He stood up not knowing what to say

"How do I know if you're not lying?"He turned back to me presumptuously.My eyes shot up at him as I gave him the 'AYS' look

"Is that all you can say!? Why would I?"I shouted

"I don't know,maybe you want my fame or you want my money"I folded my arms and chuckled

"Chris,Im independant,I have my own famous company.I don't need your fame and I didn't struggle to raise Cass on my own now did I? No..I don't want your money,I don't care if you don't believe me I have been through alot worse than that"

"You could've taken advantage of me when I was drunk and fucked me up who knows?"

"Ha! That's the lowest thing you just said.You know what? I quit,I quit working for you,I don't want to talk or see you.Please get out of my child's room"I wiped the tears that were coming out and didn't look at Chris

I looked up and Chris was still in here.The fuck?

"You're still here? Get out please,I'm tired of fighting all the damn time.My life was fine until you came,my daughter needed no father until you came now I think you should just exit my life and make things less complicated.The only proof I have is Cass,I never wished to sleep with you and I will never rape someone,let alone,a man.I wouldn't stoop so low."I spoke in my most calm way.

He sighed and sat back down at his seat resting his head on the chair.I guess he's trying to contemplate the situation.

"So you want me to get away from my child forever?" He huffed.

"Oh so now she's your child? Cassandra Lorrin is my child Chris." Nonchalantly, I spoke.

"You didn't even give her my last name,how thoughtful,"he chuckled.

"Who on earth would give her child from rape,her rapist's last name?"I questioned.

"Aye,aye would you stop it.I did not rape you" he rolled his eyes,he had one hell of an attitude.

"Hey! Look at this:Her eyes are yours,the nose is yours and the lips are yours,"I pointed each and every section.

"No I can't be the father,I can't,"he sighed once again

"Then how the hell did we make her because the last time I checked I was sober that night"I scolded

If he's going to continue doing this,I won't take it anymore.I'm really tired of all this drama,I'm gonna give him time to think this through. I had to.

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