Hard To Love|Chris Brown Prequel [Completed]

13:::Make A Public Statement

Jess

My phone buzzed as I was parking on my own spot.Once I stopped the car,I reached for my phone which was on the passenger seat.Lazingly,I opened the text message which was from Karrueche.It read

K-Suggest a place where we can chill,since you don't have any friends

I sighed by the thought of it,the glimpse of when she discovers the truth.It scared me,I didn't wanna be friends with someone and knowingly I have lies behind the friendship.I didn't reply,instead I averted my eyes to the rear view mirror to check if there wasn't anything hideous on my pretty face.Nothing major,just needed to apply lipgloss on

I snuck in my bag for a lipgloss,before I could find it,I saw a designed card.I took it carelessly opening it,eager to know what it is and how it got in my bag all of a sudden

It was my ' sister's ' invitation to her wedding ceremony.I then remembered the day she gave me something on the day we met and fought.Questions flooded;Am I gonna go? Do I need to go? How will I face my family? She's your sister afterall and she's your blood.My subconscious said

I snapped out of my thoughts biting my lips nervously.Me at my sister's wedding was tricky,all I continuously thought about was the drama,the pain,reminiscing.Could I handle all that and move on with life? Afterall,my soul wasn't at peace.It needed some relief,some fresh air and no dirty laundry

I arrive at work and do the very same thing,greeting the closest and getting into the elevator straight to my office.I sat down putting my laptop bag on top of the table,slowly opening and taking it out.

Angela opened with a bag of Starbucks in her hand,smiling graciously.I like it when people smile at me in the morning,it's always a great sign.

"Morning,I got you your morning breaker."she put the bag on the table then sat down

"Morning and thanks Angela"I said putting on my spectacles

"Hey! Have you heard?"Angela says with her eyes popped,I avert my eyes to her ready to hear what she was gonna say.She always had something to say

"No,what?"I asked concerned "Chris was spotted with a child at Vincent Park but the picture is not clear.We can't see the child but it seemed like they were going in together but the child was more walking upfront...I wonder if he has a child?" she said with a concerned tone,I coughed and swallowed hard

"Are you a Chris Brown stalker?"I asked trying to make the subject lead into a complete direction

"More like #Team Breezy,since day one.I got him,never got the Autograph though"she said with a sad tone and I smiled
"Aaw don't worry this year won't end without you getting one"I assured and she raised one eyebrow

"Why do you sound so sure?"she asked

"Because...you know..I'm working with his girlfriend so I'd put something for you there and there"I covered and she nodded in agreement

"I'll be back now,I gotta check something with the winter showcase"she said and I nodded.

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"Chris! Do you realise how damage has this done? What did you think ? Going with a child on a pure public place!?"I screeched at Chris who was drop dead tired of this conversation,he sighed putting his thumb and index finger on his nose bridge

"Will you lower your voice down?"he asked softly,not making an eye contact
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath trying to consume my fire fury burning inside me

"-And relax,sooner or later people are gonna find out"he added,was he being inconsiderate right now?

"The hell? What happened to your reputation now? If I remember clearly,you were the one who was gonna get his image ruined,his 'relationship' ruined..now you kinda hitting me with a pan on my head"I shot back closing my laptop

"I know what I said,but we can't hide this no more."

"And your plan is?"

"Make a public statement but I'm not gonna do it by myself"His voice sounding serious,yet sure and sincere

"Who do you think you gonna do it with?"I questioned looking for answers

"Who is sitting in front of me?"he asked,hitting on my senses

"Me? Foreal? Chris,hell no! You joking right?"I chuckled with disbelief,I mean,what was I to say? I was raped by Chris Brown then the media would tarnish my name and accuse me of lying and Chris would be worse than me,he would lose everything etc...

"What are you gonna say Chris? 'I raped Jessica Lorrin and she got pregnant with my child and so on'..? What about your image and mine? They would say I'm lying,because here we are acting like the perfect parents but you raped me..doesn't make sense"I sighed

"You have a better suggestion?"his voice stern enough to fill the echoes of my office questioned

"Tell K first"a thought that popped up on my mind was that

"Oh so I could get dumped? No thanks " he replied with an attitude

"You so dumb Chris"I said sarcastically

"Tell me more"he sarcastically replied

"What will hurt more to her will be the fact that you couldn't be honest with her from the first place,telling her yourself is the best recommendation.Her reaction to it,you will worry about it later,but if you don't wanna do it then it's fine.Who am I to control your life anyways?"I threw my hands in the air,meanwhile Chris just stared at me

"Holy shit,this is hard"

"Telling the truth is hard yet it brings relief,in the end you benefit..relief"I said

"You right,I should be going.Will you fetch Cass from school?"he picked up his car keys standing up

"Yes,as I always do"

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Karrueche

"Chris! Where are your car keys? I need to go to the store,I can't find mine!"I yelled hoping that Chris can hear me

"Next to the TV babe!"he yelled back since he was in the shower

I found the car keys then his phone vibrated,something told me to check what it was.I picked up his phone and put in his password,a message from B-Mama appeared on the screen.I immediately opened it

B-Mama-Cass says you were given a letter from her school,care to call me and tell me what it was about?

Wait,hold on.Was I missing something here? Who was B-Mama and who the hell was Cass? That...was probably something we'd talk about later

I put back the phone on the nightstand.Thoughts racing on my mind,I arrived outside the garage and got in the car.I started the ignition and as I tried to reverse,my head looking at the back window.I saw a pink little cute scarf

Ok,this was another thing.First the text,then the scarf,looking back at the last few days.Chris goes in the morning and does that when he either got a tour or has to go to Virginia but he never told me though! What was happening?

I went to the store and bought a few things from the store.Eager to know what Chris has been doing lately,I came back as fast as I can.Chris was on his phone in his study room,I stood at the door trying to pick up the conversation

The letter was about Cass going to the Zoo with the school,nothing major....yeah,and we got to pay an amount of $250 for the trip which includes food and drinks plus snacks....no no,she is mine too so I'mma pay the fee,don't worry....I'm sure,I know you not poor,but just let me play my part...really,are we gonna fight about who's gonna pay what now? Come on Je...I'm her father too you know! (Sighs) I'll pay it Ok? Done! Yeah yeah,tell her I love her ok? Bye

What did he mean by father? Who was her? Hold on..did Chris have a child that I didn't know about?

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