Teenagers (5sos+1D fanfic)

Sometimes To Stay Alive You Gotta Kill Your Mind

Anna's P.O.V

I have this feeling lately, a very wrong feeling. The past few years I have never had this feeling but suddenly it just hit me. Maybe Niall likes me? like.. 'like like' not as friends. i don't know.. is that my ego? I mean.. he has been mocking Nigel a lot lately. And we cuddled to sleep on his couch while we were meant to just make homework. Okay, I admit. cuddling can be done as just friends.. Thomas and I cuddle sometimes; but he has no attraction to girls.. But Ashton and I cuddled too once.. that was like 4 years ago, before he dated Dyantha, but it still counts.. right?

Or is it just my fault for giving him intentions? I'm the one in a relationship.. Maybe it's just all in my head. He probably doesn't feel a thing for me.

"Anna, what is the answer?" Miss Donger asked. I jumped up a bit, my heart started to raise. I don't know the answer! Everyone looked at me.
it was quiet, I feel like you can hear my heart beating out of my chest.

"-73" someone said. "the answer is -73" Zayn repeated himself.
I sighed in relieve.. thank God I'm saved.

Louis' P.O.V

Within 24 hours I have gained two problems that I didn't ask for, obviously! and i have no fucking idea how to fix them! Maxine is pissed at me, and Harry and I... it's just very strange! we didn't do anything after our pants were off. Liam got home and we stopped immediately. I walked out the room and we can't look at each other anymore. honestly, i'm not even sure if I want to get back with Maxine again.
Ever since that kiss my feelings for her have fade and.. I might be bi, or gay.. i'm not sure. I never felt in place with girls. yea I used to sleep around but that was like a drug.. and I thought I really loved Max but, it's just not feeling right.
what happened to Harry and I gave me such a spark! a kick! a rush! something I have never felt before.
I kind of want to do it again.

"hey buddy, you alright?" Niall shook me out of thought.
"you have been off all day, something wrong?" we walked down the hall to the dining hall for lunch break. i nod, i said I was fine and we moved on. like every conversation seems to go lately.
but are we all really okay?

Calum's P.O.V

being okay sucks. you're not happy nor sad, you're 'okay'. as in, yeah.. i'm alive..
it's nothing, it's a neutral line leading to nowhere! it's endless and you can't reach for anything good or bad.
I honestly wish something would happen; even if it's a bad thing! just something to keep my mind off thinking so much.

I'm stuck! I got arid of Vivian's bones but when he found out he freaked out. i had never seen him so angry! it's ridiculous! I thought i already had seen the worst of him when I found him on the ground surrounded with her bones. but this was it, he looked like a mess. a total mess I tell you. I thought I would lose it myself as well. I don't think I can do this much longer, i'll break. i know I will. I kept it to myself all this time but it's getting harder and harder with the days.

it's just all getting too much you know?
and then there's also the constant overthinking about other shit. like how i'm 17 and so far only had two girlfriends and never had sex. is that normal?
like, i'm damn 17! I should have already had tons of sex.. right?
Luke is younger than me and he seems to have figured it all out.
girlfriend, good grades, no trouble with your psychopathic friend, sex..
am I supposed to be so sad? is this my faith? am I always going to be this sad?
will it ever be good again?
But then again, i'm only 17, there are tons of adventures coming for me!
I guess i'll just wait it out for now.
I'll just feel fucking invisible.

Thomas' P.O.V

"Did you put it on this morning?" Dyantha asked as we walked down the hallway.
"Yes mom, I did." i mocked her.
she was talking about the lotion the doctor prescript me for the burn.
"I can't believe it happened! You must have felt a lot of pain." she sighed as we stood still at her locker.
"It burned to much I couldn't feel my skin anymore so it didn't hurt that much." I laughed.
she opened her locker and put in some books before getting some out.
meanwhile my mind had drifted off to the day. This whole weekend I haven't heard a thing from him. Besides, it's almost third period. he had to be here at second and I haven't seen him at all.
the guys didn't seem to have said anything either.
should I ask? or would that be too obvious?

"Hey, how was your anniversary with Ash by the way?" I smiled at Dyantha.
She light up.
"it was very nice! we went out to the park, watched a movie, had dinner.. it was fantastic!" and of course she went on as we walked to our class..
at this moment all I wish for would be a boyfriend as well.
As I was thinking I bumped into someone. they dropped their phone and my yaw dropped as I bent down as fast as I could

"I am SO sorry!" I handed him his phone back and he smiled.
"it's alright" he chuckled as he continued walking.

"Way to go dumbass.." Dyantha laughed as I gave her a punch to the shoulder.
"fuck off.." I laughed.

Harry's P.O.V

I got into my last class of today, finally.
but it's luckily my favorite, literature.
I love the thought of writing stories. it's getting your thoughts out on paper.
today this class was especially exciting since after a long time I finally have something to write about, besides her.
today I could write about him.. I don't know if this is something bad or good. i'm still a bit puzzled about the whole situation.
but i'm not really stuck up about it, is that bad..?

"today's assignment is friendship. so take something of your life involved of that subject, or make up a story, and write it down in the span of 500 words." Mr. Bon said to us all.
"due in two weeks!"

and there I went, Hoping for good results.
before I knew it the class was over and I could finally head home again.
but first I need to check on something.

Karima's P.O.V

I laid next to Michael on his bed. we have been lying here for a half an hour now in total silence.
our heavy breathing had long slowed and our tense bodies had softened their muscles.
but what do you say after something like this?
in the movies the lovers always tell each other they love one another. but Michael and i aren't lovers and this isn't a movie.

i was scared to get up, I was butt naked and my leg felt glued to Michael's, one movement and this would turn even more awkward.
I was staring at the ceiling for a while now.
I had took in some of his room, more than last night.
he had video games all over his desk and on his book shelfs.
our clothes were on the floor but too far for me to reach.
I searched for a clock and could only find one with hands, my sight is too blurry to make out the time but it sure wasn't AM anymore.

When are the boys coming back?
and how late are the others home? do they miss me? i feel bad for what happened this morning. I shouldn't of yelled at Anna, or anyone actually.
and for fuck's sake, I almost blurt out about Michael!

"Can I sleep here for today?" I suddenly said without even thinking about it.
and before he could even absorb the question I said 'Don't feel like you owe me. it's okay if you don't want to'
"Actually, it's all fine by me. but i'd rather not let the boys notice.." his voice was raspy and tired.
"you'll have to stay up here all day."