Teenagers (5sos+1D fanfic)

Too Tired To Sleep, Too Hungry To Eat

Karima's P.O.V

I once again escaped Michael's room early this morning.
I just can't be bothered to talk to anyone at home.
But I can't stay hidden in Michael's room forever.
it's a surprise none of the boys has found me yet. it also makes me wonder why no one has called me yet; am I really that unimportant?

"Hey!" I walked past Sule who had spotted me.
"Where have you been?!" she exclaimed. "We've been worrying sick about you!"
yeah, like I didn't hear her and Luke bang each other last night.

okay, where did that came from?
I love my friends why am I thinking so bitter?
"Hey, are you alright?"
"yeah i'm fine, i've been sleeping at a friend. Megan, from arts class." I smiled covering up my lie.
"Why don't you just come home?" she said worried.
"I don't think facing the others after what happened is a good idea." I chuckled.
"You have to come home one day.
"I know, just not yet." with that I walked past her.

Louis' P.O.V

I walked to class alone. I had been quiet the whole car ride and now again I had been thinking.
Harry and I haven't talked since what happened just days ago.
there's this wrong feeling in my stomach. I can't be around the house because he's always there. I can't have a normal lunch break because he will be there! I can't hang out with the others because HE will be there!

I have thought of Maxine too of course.
I haven't talked to her either.
in a matter of fact, I haven't been talking to anyone lately.
I make no sounds as the sounds are all in my head.
I can't stop thinking, I can't stop drinking and my money has been given away for cigarets.

I can't focus and I hate it!
I'm in love; but with who?
who is truly making me feel this way?
is it Maxine, Harry? I don't know!
I can't take this any longer, I need relief!

Dyantha's P.O.V

There's this old saying, "Be good, as for the good won't be you. But be too good and the good will leave"
it basically means, Doing good is okay, but too good is not.
I really want to believe these words, but I just can't wrap my head around it.
My brain always wants more and more.
it won't let me rest. I have to help that person, have to please this person, have to study for that test and study for this test.
Have to succeed in this and finish that.
My brain never sleeps and therefor my body doesn't either.
i'm sleep deprived and tired.
but too tired to sleep.
even my happiness is an act of kindness to others. I need to look happy to make others happy.
Even when i'm not happy, others should be.

My grades have never been low. I can proudly, but tiredly, say that my lowest grade ever had to be a 60%.
it happened seven years ago and never since I had that low of a grade.
I don't know rather it's just my personality or the fact that my parents always forced me to get good grades.. But all I know is that I can't stop it.

I must've had about 7 hours of sleep this past week.
That's roughly one hour per night.
I don't know how I'm still functioning, but i'm walking up these stairs so I must be fine.

Anna's P.O.V

I sat in class trying to concentrate but nothing was coming from that.
I kept drifting off. My head span and every sound made was damaging my ears.
I haven't slept last night and I haven't slept for a week.
I'm hungry and when usually I feel some what better after a breakdown, this time that was different.
I felt worse and it felt like I was high for a week straight and suddenly it stopped.

I snapped up trying not to sleep and concentrate. but my eyelids were heavy and my body was weak.
maybe I should stay in bed all weekend?
it's only Wednesday and i'd had to go through two more days.
Or I could call in sick.
But at the thought of finally resting my brain pushed me to do so.
I laid my head on the table and closed my eyes.
just a small rest won't do bad.

Calum's P.O.V

It was another lunch break and this time I felt some what more relieved.
I don't know what it was but I felt like I could finally enjoy a day of my life instead of thinking about what happened nine months ago.
and then again what happened a couple years ago.
It bothered me more that I had this big secret from everyone.

"I don't know what happened, I just fell asleep and now i'm in detention.." Anna sighed.
"If it makes you feel any better; I wish I had detention. I have nothing else to
do." Thomas laughed which made me chuckle.
"I wish I had nothing to do.." I sighed.
no one really seemed to heard it.
I continued listening to my friends' conversations until the bell ran and we all had to get back to class.
I may have got more time to enjoy life now. But no one to enjoy it with.