The Boy Who Gave Me Hope (Niall Horan Fan-fiction.)

Chapter 13

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SO, I am so sorry I haven’t updated in forever. I know how frustrating it can be to wait for a story to be updated.

But my schedule is so hectic ugh. I’m now in school again and I have soccer and volleyball after school every day L so yeah..

I guess I’ll update every weekend and I’ll try to just update little filler chapters on the weekdays. Sound good? Ok. Please do not be mad at me for not updating just knows that I try really hard in-between sports and school to update.

thank you for reading and being patient. X

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Stacy’s POV-

Last night with Luke was really fun. He made me laugh a lot and almost made me forget about the uncomfortable stare on me all night. I don’t know why, but it’s like someone was watching us. Besides that, it was perfect. I just kept imagining how it would be better if it was Niall instead of Luke..

I’m stuck at home for the day, since my mom is at work and doesn’t want me wondering the city alone. Ugh, so protective. I went upstairs and changed out of my pajamas since it was 12 in the afternoon. When I walked downstairs I went straight to the fridge. I got out the milk and box of cereal then went to the table to eat. Alone. I really need to do something today before I go crazy.

Maybe Niall is home? My mom wouldn’t mind me going out if it was with him.

I picked up my phone before writing a quick text sending it

To – Niall(:

hey, are you doing anything today?

no answer.

Weird

He usually always answers.

Maybe I should go check on him.. nah. He might be sleeping. I put my phone down and flipped through the TV channels and tried to find anything interesting, which, failed because all that was on was stupid reality shows. I turned the TV off and just listened to music for a while before slowly drifting off into a deep sleep.

I was walking into the woods, alone and at night. I kept walking further and further trying to get closer to the light in the distance. Getting closer and closer every second.

I stopped, hearing footsteps behind me. I whipped around and saw my mom standing there. She had been crying … and drinking? Mom never drank.

“mom?” I barely whispered. She just looked at me disgusted. What?

“You. You did it.” she stepped closer to me and I backed up. “what are you talking about?” a tear slipped down my cheek. She is acting like I’m not even her daughter.

“You killed him! You killed your father, it was all your fault!” She screamed the words that I had always knew she thought in her mind, but never actually told me. Those words. Those words that were filled with so much hate. It was my fault. It was all my fault. I backed up into a tree trunk and slid down it. Crying.

“If you were never born, your father would still be alive!” the words dripped from her mouth like venom.

I looked up at here and she was crying. “I know.” I whisper.

I jumped up sweating. Oh my god. It was just a dream. It felt so real. What if it is though? My mom might actually think that.

I know sure as hell I do.

a tear slipped down my cheek and I closed my eyes tightly. I reopened them and looked up.

“I’m so sorry dad.” I whispered. I walked slowly upstairs. All that was on my mind was the image of my mother yelling those hateful words. I killed him.

I walked into my bathroom and opened the little tiny drawer on the right. This is something I thought I would never have to do again. I took the sharp object and just looked at myself in the mirror.

what if I was never born? He would still be alive. It really is, my entire fault. Not only did I lose my father but I killed my mom’s first love.

I took the blade and looked at it. This has become a bad habit since the death. But it’s became really the only emotion I can control in my life.

pain.

I took the the cool medal and glided it across my wrist slowly. Sucking in sharp breaths with every strike.

this is what my life always comes to.

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