Shane's POV
How could he? Was I STILL not good enough for him? I should have known. He's not over Sawyer. Once you love someone there's no backing out. Like right now, there's no way for me back out of loving Joey. I can't stop loving him no matter how hard I try. I was home now, sitting on my couch crying my heart out. Maybe if I cry enough I will get dehydrated and die. No, that's stupid, I wouldn't die, and I don't wanna. I have a good life. Money to support myself, friends, family. I can't end it just because the man I love doesn't love me back. I'm glad I didn't tell him I loved him while we were watching the movie, I would've looked so stupid! And he wouldn't have told me the words I longed to hear his beautiful voice say "I love you too." because he didn't, and he never would. But why would he lie? Did he feel bad? Or did he think I was desperate and pathetic. Because that's all I am. What was wrong with Sawyer? Maybe he was jealous. And why would Joey pretend he was dating me if he was with Sawyer? I really have to talk with someone. Maybe Lisa? I feel like that might be weird, after her knowing what happened between me and Joey. I think that this is something I need to talk to my mom about. I decided to call her to make sure she was home.
"Hey Shane!"
She said, her bubbly voice ringing through the phone.
"Hi mom, um I really need to talk to you... Are you busy?"
I asked her, knowing since she was home, she most likely was not busy.
"Sure honey, what do you need to talk about?"
She asked, but I couldn't tell her on the phone it was too long of a story.
"No mom, can I come over, it's kind of a long story."
I told her.
"Ok hun, you can come over now if you would like."
She told me.
"Ok mom, be there soon, love ya."
I said, hanging up my phone. I got up and went to wash my face, so it didn't look like I was crying for hours. I went into the kitchen and looked at the clock. It was 10 already?! Gotta love my mom for being there for me at 10 at night! I grabbed my phone and headed out to my car.
It was dark out, the street lights lighting my way to the car. It must have rained a bit, as I could smell the distinct smell of concrete. I got into my car, and drove out of the driveway. I turned up the radio a bit, just for some music to cheer me up. A quiet song I didn't know started through my speakers. It was very calming. I breathed deeply calming my thoughts. As I drove down a road leading to my moms, I saw a car.
But not just any car, HIS car. But he wasn't in it, it was a woman. Stop it Shane! I thought to myself. People can have the same car as Joey! But I couldn't help it. All my thoughts of him came back. They flooded my brain. His scent, his breath in my ear, his hair I loved running my hands through, his laugh, his jokes everything I love about him. I broke down crying, tears falling down my face. I had to blink fast to see through them as I drove down the street. So much for looking like I wasn't crying. I finally pulled into my mom's driveway. I grabbed my keys and ran into her house not bothering to knock.
"M-mom!"
I uttered out, still crying. I made it into her living room. She must be upstairs. I collapse on the couch, coughing and gasping for air. I've never felt this way. I love him so much.
"M-MOM!"
I choked out.
"Shane, Honey I'll be down in a minute!"
She called down to me. I tried to answer her, but my tears enveloped my voice. All that came out were jagged gasped and coughs. I was choking on air and gasping for breath.
