His Desire

Great Mother Award

Spade POV

I thought maybe sending flowers would change her mind, but I guess it's still a no. What else could I do to get Simone attention. As I sat in the living room, in my empty condo, I thought about texting Simone again. If i try harder and harder then maybe she wouldn't have to keep saying no. Just when I was about to send Simone a text, she sent me one back.

Can you meet me at Harlem Park. I'll give you your answer.

I didn't hesitate at all, I hurried out the door and hopped into my car. As I pulled up to the park, I could see her standing, back towards me, waiting patently probably. She was wearing a skirt that came to her knees with money on it, a plain half cut white shirt and her white heels.

"Hey... looking for me." I said out the window. She turned around smiling. "How about we sit in the car and talk." She shook her head and walked over to the car. "So do I finally get my answer?"

"Yes you do. But I wanna say thank you for the flowers I do appreciate it. But how did you know where I work at?" I notice she kept pulling on her shirt.

"Taylor has it posted in her office. I was being nosy in there." For some reason, her sitting in my car made it feel official about us." So I hope you say yes to my date."

"So it is a date?... Well then you hoped right. How bout you come get me at 7 tomorrow. I live 2 blocks over from Taylor." I turned my body so we could be face to face. Something about her was drawing me into her, and I couldn't help it but want to kiss her so bad..

"Okay, 7 it is Miss Simone." I moved in closer to her lips. Just barely almost touching she sat back and open the door. "Ya know, it's just something about you I might cn't resist." She said slowly opening the door.

She giggled a bit to keep from blushing. "See you later Spade." She closed the door and walked away.

Simone POV

I kept my composure as I walked back to my car. A'Shawnti wanted to be nosy and come with me. When I got back in the car, she was smiling hard waiting for me to tell her what happen.

"So what he say?" I gave Shawnti a smile back.

"He'll pick me up at 7, sharp." I started the car and drove off.

Saturday...

As I was putting my make-up on in the bathroom I seen Samajae, walked in silently, through the mirror. I could tell something was wrong with him.

"What's wrong baby boy?" I put him on my lap.

"Why don't my daddy live with us?" His whole face became sad. Since Samajae is only 4 he wouldn't understand where his daddy is right now.

"Well Samajae your daddy is at a place where bad people go." I tired to keep it simple. " Why you ask that?"

"Kimani made fun of me today because my daddy don't live with us." I didn't know what to do. " Mommy when is daddy gone live with us."

It took me a while to give him a answer." Actually sweetheart your daddy is going to be where he is for a very long time." The door bell rung which made me look up. " Come on let's go see who that is." I put Samajae on the floor and we walked to the front door. I let Samajae open the door.

"Hey lil man." Spade said picking him up. The he stepped  inside the house. "Wow... You look Beautiful." I gave him a weak smile. " What's wrong?"

"Samajae was being picked on today at his daycare. I don't think I could leave him." I sighed.

"That's fine. We could order something." I looked up at with a surprised stare. "Is that okay with you Samajae?"

"Yeah!" Samajae yelled.

"Well I guess I will find some menu's."

"I know somebody who can cook something really quick." Spade suggested.

"Um... Okay." Spade put Samajae down and called a woman on his phone.

1 hour went past and we were all watching t.v while the lady chef cooked in my kitchen. It felt awkward, like we were a family. Samajae wouldn't be still unless we watched Disney channel. It seemed like Spade was having a nice time with Samajae.

"The food is done." The lady said in the doorway.

Spade picked up Samajae then he walked up to me, and let me walk in front of him. I could smell bake chicken with mash potatoes throughout the whole kitchen.

As we ate our food Samajae fell asleep at the table. " Looks like somebody couldn't hang." I stood up and walked over to grab him out his chair. "I'll be right back." I walked away from Spade and went upstairs. I managed to get Samajae into his pajamas without waking him up at all. I laid him down into his bed and pulled his covers over him then kissed his forehead. A black shadow stood in the doorway from the light beaming inside the dark room.

"Are you watching me?" I kept rubbing Samajae head.

"You are really a good mother." Spade walked into the room and stood behind me.

"It's a job that I take serious. Do you have any kids?" I turned around to face him. Then he sat down next to me on Samajae bed.

"Yes but I don't get to see him." Spade looked down at the floor.

"Why not?" I asked.

"Well because his mother moved him to Texas when we were 16." He started shaking his head.

"So your son is... 9?" I asked confused.

"Yeah. We were teenagers when we had him. And I was being a coward and didn't want to help her. All I wanted to do was run the streets."

"Your not so bad now." I grabbed his hand. He looked up at me with those greenish hazel eyes so perfect. " You've would have made a great father. Your even great with Samajae."

"If I fathered my child, I wouldn't have met you." Spade leaned close to my lips and kissed me. I didn't know what to do so I kissed him back. He stopped kissing me all of a sudden. "I'm sorry."

"No it's fine." I knew if A'Shawnti found this out she would freak out.

After talking for a while, sitting next to Samajae while he slept, I walked Spade to the front door. I couldn't believe this man was interested in me and my son. Most men in Chicago don't want no woman with a child, but he was different and I could see it in his eyes he was special. That night I stayed up thinking over and over again did I really want to start dating again. I knew I would go through a heartbreak all over again and this time this heartbreak would be so bad, it probably could destroy me for good.