A lot has happened since my last journal entry. A few days after my last journal entry I called Ashely Marie. I didn't know how to talk to her at first and how to talk about the problem. I asked her if she could come over because I thought that talking in person would be easier.
It wasn't. When she arrived at my house, I didn't say much at first. I offered her something to drink and something to eat but she turned everything down. Then I started to cry and cry. It came out of nowhere. I couldn't seem to stop and she didn't care. I told her everything as I sobbed. It was slightly embarrassing because I'm an ugly crier but she didn't judge me. In the midst of my confession my brothers came in silently. I didn't notice them until after I finished telling Ashely Marie everything. I've never seen them so close to tears. It broke my heart to see them like that.
Ashley Marie said it was important to tell my mom. She even offered to be there when I told her the whole truth. As much as she helped me I knew that I had to tell my mom on my own.
Mom just hugged me and cried. I don't know how I thought she would react. She promised me that she would never let me go through this alone. I was surprised how relieved I felt to have finally told my family what I was feeling. I didn't have to carry this on my own anymore. McKenzie suggested that we have one or two days a week where we eat together as a family. We don't eat so much at one time. We started out small and eating really slowly. My grandparents even came to eat with us. It feels great to have everyone next to me.
I'm not saying that I'm not struggling anymore because I still am. There are days I want to skip a meal or throw up what I just ate. I'm not fine right now but I'm going to be.
Bye For Now
Talia
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Striving for Perfection
Cerita PendekTalia Slim is your average 17 year old girl with your not so average problem. She wants to perfect for everyone and she's willing to do whatever it takes to be that.
