Secret Sister

Chapter Thirty-Five

Chapter Thirty-Five

Joe was kissing me. Jake's best friend from childhood, the 19 year old who picked us off the streets, one of my best friends, was kissing me.

I was too frozen to push him away, but I never kissed him back and he got the message pretty quickly pulling away and his expression matching my own of shock. "Oh my god" he whispered, "Abby, I'm so sorry, I swear it was a heat of the moment thing" he sat up climbing off me and I stood up too. "It meant nothing, I am so sorry"

"Its fine" I found my voice saying. But I knew it wasn't. I have a boyfriend, a guy can't just kiss me.

"No its not" Joe tried to apologize again, "I just stole your first kiss, god, Jake is going to kill me" He put his head in his hands, "I am so sorry Abby"

"Its fine, lets just, not tell anybody about this okay?" he nodded his head and I stood up. "Its getting late and I have to get back to Clarice and John, I should go. I'll talk to you some time"

"Abby you don't have to go just because I'm an idiot" Joe stated looking up at me.

"No, I should be going anyway" I told him with a weak smile trying to avoid everything being awkward between us.

I was failing dramatically.

"I really am sorry Babs" he told me using my childhood nickname as I collected my things.

"I know" I nodded as I made my way to the door, "Just don't tell anybody about it"

"Trust me, you don't have to tell me twice" he muttered.

For the first time in a long time, I didn't hug Joe goodbye, we didn't smile and leave things just as always. This were without a doubt different.

But do I tell Harry?

Its not like anything happened, I mean, he kissed me, I didn't kiss him. There's really no point in telling Harry, he would only get angry at me and Joe no matter how I explained it. He gets jealous enough at it is; he'd probably never let me see Joe again.

I arrived back at the house and my mind was still running wild over what to do. I needed to talk to somebody, ask what I should do, but who could I talk to? Liam and Zayn are his best friends, they'd tell him easy. Jake and Lora don't know and would kill Joe if they found out. Joe was definitely out of the picture.

I placed my stuff on my bed and sat down, hell if Clarice wasn't trying to ruin my life I would even go to her for answers. I was stuck and I had no idea what to do.

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Pulling into Niall's the guilt was eating me alive from the inside out. Harry had called me yesterday only a few minutes after I arrived back at the house and asked me how the day had gone. I had told him it was fun, that there was nothing different compared, I knew I should have told him. Admitted it was all a mistake and would never happen again.

But I couldn't, not over the phone, not yet.

I knew I was prolonging the talk again, just like I am with Louis. But the fear was overpowering the guilt stopping me every time.

Niall was waiting at the door by the time I turned off the engine and climbed out collecting my over night bag and slinging it over my shoulder. "You excited?" Niall grinned pulling me into a hug as we walked inside.

"Ecstatic" I muttered into his chest, my mind far from where I needed it to be.

"You okay?" he asked, I nodded my head giving my best fake smile and prayed he bought it. "Good, because I need to have girl talk"