5sos One Shots

i've got a bad case of the horrors

WARNING: RAPE, CHILD ABUSE AND SEXUAL ASSAULT

Walking into a mob of one hundred screaming fans that would kill to get a glimpse of you would be enough to freak out anyone. But, the words that were meant to be as jokes that the fans said were only enough to freak out Luke.

Calum cringed as Luke let out a small whimper as another fan made a 'daddy' joke, wishing he could cuddle the blonde's memories away.

Luke felt bile rise in his throat but he swallowed it down with a grimace and kept walking with Calum's hand in his. They were officially out as a couple as of last week and it was new but exciting to be able to hold Calum's hand out in public for Luke. And it also provided a sense of comfort for times like now.

The youngest hated talking about it but when he was younger his dad sexually assaulted him while Liz was at work. She was a teacher, so that meant she stayed hours after work and that also meant Luke was alone with his dad a lot. Luke's father forced Luke to call him 'daddy' and to give and receive many sexual acts.

It started when Luke was six, a very young and sickening age to be traumatized and betrayed by your own father. It happened every day excluding the weekends all the way up to the age of thirteen. When Luke was thirteen he met Calum and Michael, who he eventually told what was going on. Despite both boys pleas for Luke to tell a teacher, his mother or the police Luke always said no. One day, Calum and Michael went to Liz themselves, who instantly went to the police and got Luke's dad arrested.

But, it wasn't that simple. Just because Luke's dad was locked up in a jail cell, the memories didn't leave Luke. Ever. He took a sickening amount of medication to just keep his head on straight. Being around a bunch of people who called them 'daddy' was hard for Luke.

Luke pulled his hand away from Calum, always having to remove any physical connect with everyone while he thought about his dad. It seemed that Luke's dad's hands were all over him when he thought about it and it made him feel dirty and disgusting.

"I'm sorry," Luke mumbled, walking closely next to Calum, but not touching him. "I'm sorry," he repeated.

Calum smiled at the blonde. Although he was a very touchy person, he had to understand Luke's needs and if he needed to be left alone right now he would deal with it. "It's alright Luke. We're almost to the bus, you can sleep or do something to get your mind off of it."

Ashton appeared at Luke's side when finally realizing what was going on (although Luke barely showed any signs of discomfort, the band was so close they could practically hear everything that went on in each other's minds). He didn't care that he had to abandon the waiting fans.

Ashton leaned in as close as he dared at a time like this and whispered, "Take your meds, should help." Luke nodded, walking forward.

Luke took four different medications on a daily basis. He took pills for insomnia, panic attacks, anxiety and anti depressants. On bad days, he took a pill that made the memories a little hazy and easier to forget them for a day.

When the security guards got the band safely on the bus, Luke instantly went to the back of the bus, shutting himself in the room. In there he just stared out the window, trying to ignore the raging memories that begged for attention.

Michael knocked on the door to give Luke his medication but Luke just told him to go away. Although the door didn't lock, Michael didn't want to barge in there and demand Luke to take his medication. Instead, he took a lighter route. "Luke? I have your pills, it will make everything go away. All of the bad memories, please take them."

Michael heard a quiet sniffle. "Please just go Mikey."

When Luke's mum was on tour with them it was a lot easier getting Luke to calm down. But, Liz couldn't be on tour every time despite Luke's wants.