That's Real Life

8

Cuts of pain

Suzy's POV
I sit on the edge of my bed and look at the blade. It's funny how a paper cut or stubbing your toe could feel like the worst pain but I can take a blade to my skin and feel almost nothing.

Just empty numbness........

I heard some one come through the door. I didn't really care who it was so I stayed in my room.

"Suzy!" I heard my aunt call for me, but I wish it was Omma. I wish I could've talked to her one last time. Just one last time.

"Suzy where are you?" She screamed again. I still didn't answer. I heard her walk up the stairs. She called me once more.

"Suzy please!" She shouted. I heard her footsteps come closer to my door. She opened my bedroom door and stood there. She looked at me. I looked at her. She walked towards me and sat on the bed next to me. I felt a tear roll down my cheek.

"Are you okay?" She asked a dumb question, of course I'm not okay.

"It hurts but I'm used to it...." I respond then look towards the ground.

You know that feeling when you loose everything. Everything you needed, everything you wanted. Now imagine that times 10 worse that's what I'm feeling.

"You should get some sleep darling." She said while stroking my hair.

"Where's Ming?" I ask.

"He is in his room." Once she said that I got up off my bed and walked to Ming's room. When I open the door I saw him sitting on his bed crying. He looked at me and I looked at him.

"M-Ming." I stutter.

No answer.

"Ming?!" I say a little louder.

"ITS YOUR FAULT. YOU CAUSED HER STRESS. YOU MADE HER STAY UP ALMOST EVERY NIGHT. I WATCHED HER. I........... " I cut him off and hugged him tightly.

"I'm sorry Ming, I'm so sorry." I say as he sobbed into my arms.

I let him down.

I let Omma down.

I let myself down.

"Sleep now." I say and and tucked him in his bed. I planted a kiss on his forehead just like Omma did every night. I know it didn't feel the same to him.

"I will never leave you." I whisper.

I walked back into my room and changed my clothes. I get in my bed and try to sleep. Sleep was the only way to escape it all. Maybe I should sleep forever......

I look back at the drawer with the blade. The blade that hurt me on the outside but killed the monster on the inside.

After a couple minutes I shut my heavy eyes and went to sleep.

Jungkook's POV

On the drive to the dorm I look for my phone to tell rapmon that I was on the way home but I couldn't find it.