5SOS Preferences

#12 - "I Didn't Stop Praying That You've Forgiven Me"

Okay so quick heads up - This is the second part to the preferences in the previous chapter. If you haven't read them you might wanna ;) But this part is in {y.n} point of view and I actually thought that I might do one of the guys point of view in the next part. Tell me what you guys think in the comments x

Calum :

I had refereshed the page for "Rentals In Ehrenfeld , Cologne , Germany" but I still was getting nowhere. I was sitting on the rather comfortable bed in a hotel some place in the city but I had already stayed here for a week and I felt like I was wasting my money. 100 Euros a night is a lot. Well not actually that much but when you're thrown out of your boyfriends house and umemployed , it is.

The houses I was looking at were either in horrible condition or extremely pricey. I had already called my mum the moment I stepped foot out of Calum's house and talked shit about him.A week is a short term in reality but honestly it was the longest peroid of time that I went through.

Also as if I'm not screwed up enough , I don't have a job. The last interview I went to was about 6 months ago and it was the hardest i ever tried for something. I just gave up after that and I hate to admit it.

Calum hadn't called me or anything and I was loosing every single piece of my mind. He wasn't worried for me. Yes I wasn't new to Cologne but I had practically never been alone in this city before. The words he said - How he took me into his house and how he helped me get through depression - they kept replaying in my mind. He was such a good person and I don't know how I can ever pay him back for that. I dont blame him for one single thing.

A few mornings later i had found a nice place not too pricey and not too bad and decided to take a look at it. It was an open house sort of thing so i tried to get there as early as possible ; so around 9 in the morning. On my way i stopped by an adorable coffee shop but as soon as i saw the line i was about to not head in. But seeing all the pastries in the front window stole my heart and made me wait in a line for nearly 15 minutes. I had finally reached the counter and ordered a flat white with a Bethmannchen which is a pastrie made with marzipan and is usually made around christmas time so i was so lucky so see that on display in the front window saying in German : "Fresh Bethmannchens!"

I frantically searched for my wallet in my bag and see i hate this situation ; the cashier is standing waiting for my 10 euros and i still havent found my wallet and hundreds of people are sighing behind me. I found a random 10 euro note in my purse and extended it to the barista just as a similar tan hand extended a debit card and the barista taking the card over my cash. I immediatly turned to look who it was and it was Calum.

'Whyd you do that?' Was the first thing that came out of my mouth. My mouth was still proccessing that it was Calum and t was probably the longest ive been away from him. He had a little stubble on his facs but his scent was same : Armani.

'The best i can do after what i did... I can't even forgive myself so i cant even imagine if youve forgiven me.' He said so quietly. I got so lost in my thoughts i nearly missed the barista yelling 'Flat white with Bethmannchen!'

'Thats mine.' I said as i quickly grabbed my order from the angry barista. Me and calum walked to the other side of the coffee shop with hismocha in his hand. He had always loved everything chocolate.

'Calum dont feel guilty. The more I analyized myself ive realised that you had every right to throw me out. I am very upset but itsnot your fault.' I could feel the emptiness in his eyes and he felt nothing but guilt.

'y.n. , i abandoned you... Even if we werent dating its just wrong to leave someone in a tough situation. I think you should come back...' He said quietly and i still couldnt process what he was saying.