Leave Me Alone (h.s.)

Chapter 45

FAITHLYN'S POV

It had been two days since I abandoned Harry. Two long days of taking buses and trains to get the hell out of California and here I am in the state I've always wanted to live in since I was seven years old and I visited my aunt here and we went on hikes and watched the rain blissfully fall and admired the nature and all that shit.

Oregon. It was a beautiful place. I had always told my mom that I was going to move here someday, and today I finally made it happen. Of course, my mom didn't like the idea because obviously she didn't want her only child to be nearly 900 miles away from her and her family, but now I don't have any family left in the city I was raised in. I really didn't have much less to lose besides the boy I might love and a few friends.

I carried my duffle bag on my shoulder as I walked the streets of cloudy skies and beautiful surroundings. It was by far, the most amazing place to me, but that doesn't say much because I've only been out of California twice in my life and there is probably much more beautiful things than Oregon, I just haven't discovered them yet.

I felt guilty for leaving Harry behind, yes, but I did not feel sad that I was leaving him. I know that's pretty shitty of me, but I was so out of touch with my feelings that I couldn't understand what being happy or sad was. It was just constant contentment, but empty and I was alright with that.

I had nothing to worry about here. And I loved that more than anything. I didn't have a worry about Harry, or going to school, or seeing people I knew. I could start completely fresh here and I wish that nobody can find me because it was much more peaceful this way.

A few days before today, I had been looking at apartments for here online and had happened to find one that was relatively good enough for me and I had called about it and everything and now I just had to find it. The only problem being that in order for me to find it, I would have to turn on my phone and use the GPS and I wasn't ready to face probably hundreds of texts and missed calls from Harry. So instead, I found a nearby library and jumped on one of the computers, googling the address and writing down the directions on a piece of paper, avoiding my problems and pushing them to the back of my mind at all costs.

I began my journey of finding my new living cave, looking at each street name I pass and looking back at the paper to see where to turn and all that whatnot. The computer said that it was a few miles away from the library and I was not excited whatsoever about the exercise, but at least I get to explore the town as I go.

HARRY'S POV

Faithlyn left me two days ago and I've been nothing more than a complete wreck. She won't answer my calls or messages or even a goddamn email. I've searched the school, the public library, whatever friend she had, but she was nowhere to be fucking found.

I didn't think it was possible, but I've balled my eyes out since she left. The fountains of tears just kept coming and coming even if I tried to stop, I couldn't. It's difficult to go from seeing my baby everyday to not at all.

Louis has been staying with me in my house just to watch over me because coincidentally, he came here five minutes after I quit my search for the girl named Faithlyn. I answered the door shamefully crying and he instantly forgot what the reason he came here for and began trying to figure out what was wrong.

I still don't fucking understand. Why was this so sudden? I know that we were going through a rough patch in our relationship with all the drugs and the lies and the fire, but things were getting better. Why was I the optimistic one?