Crying Underwater So You Don't Hear the Sound (Vic Fuentes Fanfic)

Chapter 23

Chapter 23

(Alyssa POV)

It's the last week of warped tour, finally. I've been staying on Pierce the Veils bus ever since Oli and I broke up. The first two weeks was a bit awkward when staying with Pierce the Veil, but now we have found our old friendships we used to have. Vic and I aren't a "thing" nor have we mentioned anything about it. I just want to stay friends. I'm scared to commit to another relationship. I hate seeing that look of hurt in Vic's eyes because I know he wants more than friendship. I'm not the person to give it to him.

I stood in the bathroom and did the final touches on my makeup. Us and some other bands are going to some local club. I don't really care where we are going, I just want alcohol in my system.

There was soon a rapid knocking at the door, "hurry uppp!" Mike whined from the other side.

I opened the door and soon Mike hurried passed me. His tall figure bent down to open the cabinet and pulled out a small sandwich bag full of something green. Weed.

He closed the cabinet and his eyes locked on my curious stare. "What are you doing?" I said crossing my arms and blocking his path out of the bathroom.

"Everyone's taking too long so I'm going to get this party myself. Want to join?" He raised on eyebrow at me.

"Uuuhhmmm," I responded nervously and shrugged my shoulders. I mean why not give it a try.

He walked passed me and I followed him into the back lounge. We shut the door behind us and took a seat on the floor. He pulled out some rolling paper and began making a blunt. He pulled out his lighter and looked at me, "you sure about this?" He said.

I nodded my head and was kind of unsure about it, but I didn't care. He then pulled the lighter out of his pocket and lit the blunt. He brought it to his lips and inhaled before exhaling a cloud of smoke. Soon there was an overwhelming skunk smell filling the room. He then passed it over to me.

"Don't inhale too fast. It'll burn" he said.

I hesitated before bringing the small blunt to my lips. I slowly inhaled the smoke while a burning sensation filled my throat. I passed the blunt back to Mike while I coughed uncontrollably. He let out a small chuckle and took a few hits before passing it back to me.

After a few hits, it wasn't so bad. I started to feel relaxed and giddy. Mike and I spent ten minutes in the back room smoking and laughing our asses off at stupid jokes.

Soon the door handle moved, "hey guys, are you re-" Vic said before he gathered what was going on. He glanced at me and I looked away from his disapproving stare. "We are ready when you guys are ready." He quickly said shutting the door. Great now he's mad at me.

I let out a frustrated sigh and stood up. Mike did the same and followed me out the door without saying a word.

We stepped into the front lounge to find the rest of the guys waiting. Tony and Jaime looked up at me and smiled.

"Well don't you look gorgeous," Jaime said in a girly voice.

"I can say the same for you." I joked back.

I glanced at Vic and found him looking the other direction. Not even bothering looking in my direction. That's fine. I can play the cold shoulder game back.

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We entered the crowded club. I looked around the room and found slutty girls dancing all over guys with alcohol in their hands. Finally, my eyes set on the group of tattooed men. I had no idea this many bands would be here. The guys had already ditched me for the group of bands. Leaving me alone in a crowd of people.

Lately, or the entire warped tour, I've been feeling like everyone has ran out of room for me. Yeah, I know me and the Pierce the Veil guys have brought our friendship back, but there are some times where I'm left on the bus while they go have fun. Nobody ever asks me to do anything with them. Now not even Vic wants to be around me. He won't even look at me. I feel so lonely.

I made my way over to the bar and sat down alone. I ordered a few shots, but then a few turned into almost a dozen. Soon, I couldn't even keep my balance in my chair. I stood up and held on to the chair and looked around the room. I didn't know anyone in sight.

I stumbled toward the bathrooms while holding my self up on the wall. I tripped and almost fell on my ass before tattooed arms caught me. I looked around to see Oli staring back at me. Great.

I groaned in annoyance, "let me go, Sykes" I slurred.

"No, I need to take you back to the buses. You're way to drunk." He said.

"Can we just sit down somewhere?" I asked.

He nodded in response and helped me to a both. We both sat down in silence. Then all of a sudden, I gained too much confidence that I couldn't control. I squeezed Olis thigh and scooted closer to him. He stiffened as a sat closer.

"So Oli, have you missed me?" I slurred at him.

"Now is not the time to talk about this." He said kind of hesitant, but he never moved away.

"I'm so lonely Oli. Everyone is always ditching me." I whined. Before kissing his neck, "I need you." I couldn't believe myself.

He didn't hesitate to drag me out of the both and into one of the empty bathrooms, locking the door behind us. Soon he had me pressed against the wall and kissing me hungrily. It meant nothing more to me than lust. I wanted to stop myself, but I needed someone. I shouldn't be doing this, but I want to feel somewhat loved.

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Once we were done, I didn't look him in the eyes before I made my way to the door. I shouldn't have done that. I felt so dirty and guilty. I mean I am single and I can do what I want, but sex shouldn't be the thing that fills that empty part of my heart.

I felt Oli grab my wrist, but I yanked it away. "Alyssa..."

"No Oli, we can't be together. I'm sorry." I put my hand on the door handle.

"So you just have sex with me and leave? You use me and leave? Did that mean nothing to you at all Alyssa?" I turned around and looked at his sad eyes. Disappointment filled his features. He could read me so well, "you are so fucking heartless." He said before pushing past me and out the door.

There I stood, alone once again.

I sprinted out the door, not caring about my appearance. It was obvious what I did. The words "slut" should have been written all over me.

I exited the club and into the pouring rain. Fucking fantastic. I didn't bother waving a cab down so instead I walked in the rain. It was freezing, but I didn't care. I felt numb anyway. I wanted to cry, but I just couldn't. I was so used to pain to not even care anymore.

I finally made it back to the buses. I knocked on the bus door and pulled on the handle, but no one was inside. Everyone went to the club of course.

Instead I sat down in front of the bus door and brought my knees up to my chest. I shivered and sneezed uncontrollable. I started feeling light headed and my vision blurred. Don't you pass out Alyssa.

After a few minutes of this, I heard loud footsteps approaching and familiar guys laughing. I could have still been at the bar and they would have left me. They obviously didn't care.

All of a sudden the footsteps stopped and no one said a word before unlocking the bus and carrying me in.

"Start a warm shower." Tony said only to find out he is the one carrying me.

Me and Tony were soon both in the bathroom as he began to help me get out of my wet clothes. At this moment, I didn't care if he saw me naked. I mean he was my best friend. Neither of us spoke. The only thing you could hear were my teeth chattering together.

He exited the bathroom, giving me privacy to shower. It wasn't long before I was sitting on the bottom of the shower sobbing. A few more minute of this went on before I turned off the water and stepped out. I was still freezing to death. Soon, I started having a sneeze attack. God, I better not be sick.

I dried off and slipped on the hoodie and sweatpants Tony had left for me. I exited the bathroom and didn't look at anyone. I walked to the bunk and jumped into mine, wrapping the blanket around me.

An hour or so passed, and I still couldn't get to sleep. I then heard someone walk down the tiny hall and stop at my bunk. I squeezed my eyes shut, pretending to be asleep. Who ever it was slowly opened the curtain. By the smell of the cologne gave it away that it was Vic. Then the unexpected happened. I felt soft lips press lightly on my forehead and a thumb caressing my cheek. I just pray to god, he doesn't feel it burning. So many emotions hit me at once, but I kept my eyes shut.

He pulled away and slowly began to close the curtain before whispering three little inaudible words.

"I love you"

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Hey guys. I'm sorry for such the long wait. I've been super busy with school and all the stress gave me extreme writers block. Besides that, I went to the house party tour last night!! I had the best night ever. I was 3 people from the barricade during PTV and atl. It was pretty intense. <3

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