Torn.

Chapter Five: Fresh Start

"Maanni, maaaannnnibearrr" I heard a voice calling me, I opened up my eyes and saw a blurry Lauren standing over me. I shook my head and sat up, my lower back aching from having slept on the couch. I don't remember actually falling asleep and staying asleep but I'm glad I did because I felt well rested. "Wake up stuuupid" my girlfriend said as she jumped on me and playfully hit me. She was in a such a cheerful mood, which was weird considering what happened, but I smiled as I closed my eyes for a brief second. However I remembered the terror that was last night and quickly opened them back up and sat up quickly.

Lauren must've sensed that something was wrong because she cocked her head to the side and gave me a look. My girl looked so hot in the morning, she had on her favorite 'the 1975' tee with some loose white pajama shorts and her hair was in a messy bun. She slid down off the top of my stomach and fell back first hitting the huge sofa cushion, she quickly plopped back up and motioned for me to tell her what was wrong.

"Babe, we really need to talk I mean like talk, talk" she began to play with her hands and I knew that she knew where this conversation was heading. "It's... I just feel like we never truly talked about the whole Camila thing, and I feel like... no I know that you have trust issues and then the whole Dinah thing" I could feel myself rambling, but I wanted to get everything off my chest. "I just want you to talk to me, it's not healthy for you to hold things in". I realized somewhere in saying all I had to say I had lost eye contact with her, she looked uncomfortable.

"Lolo?" I said trying to get her attention.

"I thought I said everything, that day I really did. I love you so much Mani, no one can take away what we have, that's why I forgave you a long time ago" she said after sometime as she finally looked up and stared into my eyes. "I do get jealous, because you're so outgoing and can sometimes be very flirtatious without knowing, plus you've got a bangin' bod and I want to be the only one who sees it" she said with a smirk. "But anyways, I heard you crying this morning in your sleep, is this what it was about?" I nodded and put my head down. "Sort of, I had a sex dream about...our neighbor" I said grabbing a pillow and putting to my face, i couldn't bear to see her expression.

It was silent for a long time. I slowly lowered the pillow from my face and Lauren was just staring at me with a blank expression on her face. It was so creepy I couldn't read her, it was almost like she wasn't in the room with me. Finally, after what felt like forever she blinked and said "I have an idea" so softly I had to practically read her lips. "...what?" I asked curiously. "I think you and I need to spend more time together" she said with a half-smile. "Are you ignoring what I said?" I asked. "No, I just miss...us. I miss laughing with you the past few days we've barely spoken and want us back. Fuck Camila. Fuck Dinah. I want US back. Although the sex dream is pretty fucked up, but that hoe ain't got nothing on me" she said as she stood up and puckered her lips and swung her hips to the said which made me laugh. It seemed like her emotions did a complete 180 which had never happened before, I probably should've been more worried, but I decided to go with it. "Okayy Lo, I like this side of you" I said feeling slightly turned on.

"You know how I do, now get dressed today is Lauren and Normani day and we're late for our first activity" she said speed walking into our bedroom. I got up and followed her, wondering what she had planned and hoping for a good day.

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"Lauren Michelle, what the fuck?! I'm not doing that!" I said as we drove past a big sign that read: 'Luke's Skydiving'. My girlfriend was in the driver's seat laughing so hard I thought she was going to crash the car. "Baby come on, you always say 'oh lets do something crazy today' or some shit like that, so I figured hey I got your crazy" she said still grinning wildly. I was very unsure about this, Lauren was the adventurous one, the daredevil, my lil rebel. So if anyone was going to do this it was going to be her and her alone.